[[w0 de guu shii____*

2006-06-04T23:44:00.000-07:00

new holidae
new life
new blog
new url (:

gna leave this as it is.

my email never change okay?
for msn, for frendster, wadever.

tan_yijun34@hotmail.com

2006-05-26T13:05:00.000-07:00

S Club 8 - Together

Da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da da da

I am naughty but nice
I am sweetness and light
I will make your dreams come true
I love to dance through the night
I love to watch the sunrise
I wanna wake up bright and new
But when we get together, together
Together we're strong and together we're fun
And we break every heart baby one by one
And it doesn't really matter how old or young
Just try an' you'll make it
We know the world is not so great
We feel the bad times fade away
Together we are strong
I don't mean to get mad
I don't mean to be bad
Sometimes I get a little crazy
I love to play like we should
I get a feeling so good
There ain't no angels gonna save me
'Cos when we get together, together
Together we're strong and together we're fun
And we break every heart baby one by one
And it doesn't really matter how old or young
Just try an' you'll make it
We know the world is not so great
We feel the bad times fade away
Together we are strong
Whenever you need a friend...we're waiting
To always lend a helping hand...don't be shy
When you're feeling lonely
When you're feeling down
Just remember we can turn the world around...turn the world around

Wooooh
Wo-ohOh-oh
We know the world is not so great
We feel the bad times fade away
Together we are strong
Together we're strong and together we're fun
And we break every heart baby one by one
And it doesn't really matter how old or young
Just try an' you'll make it
We know the world is not so great
We feel the bad times fade away
Together we are strong (x2)
Together...we are strong

2006-05-12T13:39:00.000-07:00

just chnged song to Liu Yue De Yu
song from xian jian qi xia zhaun x))

RESULTS IMPROVED! xD
happy happy!
improved by 20 points!
freaking happy laaaa~
but got pulled down by humans F9
LOL!
prelims 10+ points here i come~~

cindy's nick!: YIJUN, im SUPER proud of you baby!

HEHE.
yeah yeah~~
move it move it~

gna make my family proud of me in exams!
hope so!

pictures!

YEAH! new dress! love it!~ long time never buy clothes liaos. mum bought this for me from auntie's shop again! din go there for very long time. . =))

hair very messy here, LOL. but can see better withthe sunlight!

my beloved neighbour! smart looking right!

took it on wednesdae, lols~ open eyes big big. see how jackie stares, ROFL.

my only stupid gan-didi`! haha. with different kinds of eyes.

the normal and SEEMS to be good-natured guy eyes, HAHA.

the seducive one-

the most cute&frendly one! xD

went movie Mission Impossible 3 ystd with cindy; hongyi; yiliang; kiat yao; shuwei; weijie; jannson; jon-zee; lionel`! quite thrilling and SUPER FUNNY! LOL!

cut cUt CUT!
gna cut my fringe shorter or just pin up like last time!
getting longer!

oh yes!
haven change seats yet,
ROFL~

thats all!
gna do my maths later!
HEHE.

told mr tong my results improved like shit!
damnn happy~
as usual,
he's being funny again,
LOL.
andd. .

he saes:
so the sucking of facts worked!!!

HAHA.
of cos it works! x))
it's motivation,
but only to me i guess,
HAHA.

come on wake up your ideas and sucks all facts in`! xD ILOVEYOU.

CIAOS!

2006-05-10T23:09:00.000-07:00

tmr gna chnge seats
aye~

just now chatted with cindy about our S.P
hers is yuzhe
mine is jackie
and i realized cindy and i have the same 'species' of S.P
dno how to explain,
but yea (:
only cindy and i understand
HAHA.

tmr jackie not coming to sch
haii
chnging seats w/o his presence..

cindy gna take lots and lots of pics with yuzhe tmr!
HAHA.
last dae mahs. .
but i cannot =((
but jackie and i have deal on mondae!!
HAHAHA.

oh yes!
counted my results for upcoming result slip!
think got improvement!
damn happy~
HHAHA.

toking to mr tong is really quite relaxing la
very fun! xD
he sent me this just now when he saw my dp and i was just nice toking about me slping late and my eyes are getting smaller and smaller. .

my display~

this is wad he sent! ( you must tilt your eyes then can see! )
If you cannot decipher anything, then try pulling the corner of your eyes as if you have small eyes like Yi Jun's. It works! LOL.

THAT'S IT!

gna slp early tonite!

c yAz!~

2006-05-07T18:23:00.000-07:00

just did 2 hours of maths
getting siann
wanted to take a nap before the tuition starts later
but not that tired
hmmmms

todae's post more of pictures than words la
no time, haha.

that time first time tried doing scrambled egg, turned out quite nice! (:

last week british council's lesson we watched 'The Beach' by leornado. xD

becos last week mum not free to fetch me, i went shopping at tanglin mall! where all the eurasians went, kao. seriously, that's a place for very rich ppl, felt so awkward in a place of tall&rich eurasians when im so short, LOL. enw, with the 100 bucks my dad gave me, i kept half of it, and went shopping! haha! but wad amazed me there are the food and such! so wad i bought are food fOoD FOOD! LOL!

my lunch! chilli chicken tie ban shao and rice! DAMN NICE.

the super big ice cream! ( my whole hand is just holding the bottom! can imagine how big it is. )

the kiddy shoes shop-

i super love the so called NTUC there! when you stepped in, you will feel like you are shopping in a supermarket overseas! cos how they build the ntuc is totaly different! got the eurasian de wei dao! and there's this two rows of big fridges, 14-16 each row!

so unlike singapore NTUC right!

wad i bought. . the biscuits&cookies cant be found in normal NTUC. all from overseas.

this is the amount of food the eurasians buy! it's omg!

the cd shop at tanglin mall! very nice built-

there are supposed to have 'DJ' standing on top at the left corner, but when i took the pic, the person just nice not there, LOL.

the kid's shop.

end of tanglin mall`!

now random pictures!

SO CUTE!

the 1o1 peach cake!

my mum! hahas, looked so young right! xD

nightview from my house-

spaghetti i had at british council, very nice.

dad's birthdae! treat from the family, dinner&cake-

jun rui with the pony tail, LOL!

jian hua got snapped!

that time took this pic when im in the car-

photo-taking that time. . jr looked damn tall from this view. (=_-")

jun rui's gone bonkas, HAHA.

another great frend of mine, hhaha. he's acting cute for your info, LOL.

jun rui again, forever acting cute, ROFL~

me and jun rui`!

i swear, this is my bestest frend ever.

the three of us, no qiaoyu! LOL! too bad~ (qy, see this? HAHA.)

cindy&me! LOL!

the piglet with eyesight problem, HAHA.

that's all for todae!
have to go bath and ready for tuition`!

BYEEEEEEE~

2006-05-01T03:06:00.000-07:00

seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late.

I THINK CINDY PHUA IS SO 'UNDESCRIBABLE '! LOL.

SCRAMBLED EGG
GALILEE SPAGHETTI
CHILLI CHICKEN TIE BAN SHAO

CINDY, SAW THIS?! xD

eniwae,
it's currently 3+ am alrdy
and yet so many people still online
just now 2+ still have 32 people!
hahhahas.
now crapping with CINDY; QIAO YU; SELENA!
HHAHHA.
superrrr crap!

» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
AI SHEY
» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
cndy so hardworking hurh..
» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
EHHH!!!
» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
CINDY!!
» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
omg!!
» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
I SAW A BLUE MOON ON THE SKY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! did you see it?!!? HAHAH./
there's this unexplainable feelin i have for you guys (: says:
OMG FINALLYYYY
there's this unexplainable feelin i have for you guys (: says:
WHAT BLUE MOON
there's this unexplainable feelin i have for you guys (: says:
YOU SHUT UP
LOL
» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
hahhas
» «¥ï JüÑ™» « time really flies yea. . but w/o wings, HAHA. seriously i think teenagers nowadaes are super pro at slping late. says:
WOLS LEH NI.

(cindy phua just asked me mai cha, cos she's super high now, LOL!)

cheer up jian hua (:

2006-05-01T01:01:00.000-07:00

[1:01am]

just finished uploading&resizing all the pictures! xD

blog tmr!
too tired to think and type alr
hahahas.

2006-04-29T23:05:00.000-07:00

thanks lotssssss to sir ahmad&jon (:
great to have them actually
haha.

2006-04-29T19:46:00.000-07:00

[7:46pm]

kind of disappointed with you guys again
tot you guys will do & check properly then send
but it seemed otherwise
sometimes just dno wad things got over you all
just did the work blindly.
i rly dno wad got over you guys, staffs and aps, both sm tot the sgts who holds a lower post is doing better than you guys. do you rly care about your part? can prove us that you guys do care??
enw.

been troubling over the ROD date
here clash there clash
wthhh`
keep looking my handbook & think
still have to see these clts free these clts not free
in the first place we are so busy too
hais.
just now on the fone with the clts again
tok until really wna cry alr
and he just sounds so angry in the bg due to canot co-ordinate with them and they have to pon sch if they wan come for our ROD
but wad to do?
you think i never plan the date properly?
i've been thinking for so long alr.
it's our ROD
i also wish you guys can make it
but we really dunhave the timeslot
huisia also dno wad to do alr

who to understand me?
my passion towards this cca
i wan to do well
i wan to let all the ppl who help me when im a cadet & an usm to come for my ROD, for my part's ROD
and apart from that.
who can understand my situation?
when my studies are the worst in my part
and the schedule for my june is
first week - conquer O.
second week - whole dae trng + discussion for posting
third week - supposedly planning of ROD and parade
fourth week - CUGC
and it's my common test week alr!

i promise my mum i will work hard
i promised that
i alwaes break that promise since sec sch
i dunwan break it agn for this coming common Test/Prelim/Olvl
she dun expect me to go into JC and uni
she dun expect extremely well results
she just expect me to get at least a diploma
she. .
i love her.
i've just drop amaths
and have to work doubly hard for emaths

i wish for a good ROD
i wish for good results
but wad to do.
so many problems.

breakdown-

2006-04-27T19:39:00.000-07:00

thanks cin (:

gna treasure my klasmates lots & lots!
esp jackie; cindy; kg; yy and lots!

gna have drastic chnges in the sitting arrangements in klas!
but still the same for me i guess (:
else i'll die w/o that listening ear cum S.P!
thanks cindy (:

btw!

cindy and chitsian the two studious ppl gna sit in front of me i think!
SO!
i think i will be 'stressed' by them
so will work harder
else will die~~
CINDY & CHITSIAN!
must teach me and jackie okays!
LOL!
die die must make me study~
hardworking & crazy people are arnd me!
im so fortunate (:

love 4/3 more and more~

tmr oral`!
HAIS.
goodluck to me! xD

photo-taking too!
wna look best tmr~
last photo with my dearest klas and my last year in sch too!
#LOTSA LOVE <3

oh yes!

HAPPY SWEEEET SIXTEEN TO MY DEAREST 24hour frend TAN BO HAO! xD

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAE TO TAN WEEEEEE~
(sorry din make it for your birthdae lunch)

2006-04-26T19:37:00.000-07:00

it's okay my dear (:

give me some time bahs
though still kind of angry/sad/disappointed with you guys.

sorry din tok todae
just dun feel like opening my mouth
same for the next few daes i think
but still can come tok to me lahs
then will slowly back to normal again

(:

todae early morning going to sch
downstairs my block is mediacorp!
not the first time alr!
previous was chen zhi cai with the bride (forget wad show)
LOL!
they are so early to come here and film
and i saw zeng shi mei!
she is darn pretty
wanted to take picture with her
but too paiseh
LOL!
she's really damn gorgeous
good-looking with such good complexion and BIG eyes!
bit regret nv take pic.

eniwae.

mum told me they later went market film again
and there's mo xiao ling!
ROFL~

this morning,
my legs just auto hesitated to go into the klas
but have to go in eniwae (:

din tok to you guys whole dae
i was feeling no good either
but rly dun feel like toking
sorry (:

wasted my whole afternoon walking
dammit.

nan de i got the energy to study this afternoon
argh`

mr tong!
if you're reading this!
im not selected for consultation two times for maths alr! xp

the one last thing im gna sae. .

I LOVE 4/3 (:

number of comics under matthew's desk (-___-")

that overnite stay at cindy's house. . rocks. . still got somemore pics haven upload, next time k!

omg, this is terrible! amount of things wrote on the whiteboard for differentiation!

chitsian's birthdae! kena 'raped', as usual.

that's all for todae!

2006-04-25T20:04:00.000-07:00

wanted to blog todae
blog EVERYTHING,
EVERY PICTURES.

but.

THEY SPOIL MY FREAKING MOOD ALRIGHT?

im alrdy so damn tired todae
tired until just now went dinner with mum
i teared.

came home so excitedly
wanted to blog and rest for TODAY

but.

wad i heard?

you guys discussed about me?
my personal affairs?

for my own good?
yes.
i agreed
but think back
did you all use the RIGHT method

discussed about my privacy?
my fucking problem?

wada fuck is wrong with you guys hurh?

noe how terrible i feel?

the people there
NOT every single one is my fucking best/good frend!

put yourself in my shoes
will you let someone you not so close with noeing the details of your privacy?

THINK PEOPLE.
to think i've trusted you guys. .

esp the close ones.

2006-04-14T21:01:00.000-07:00

back from cindy's house!
and i got myself a new haircut todae!
mannnnn. .
damn tired.
wad happen in cindy's house will be updated sooon (:

new haircut! with the hair tied up (: was experimenting my hair when i got home, must noe how to tie. cos it's layered. .

take 1

take 2

how?
my current one or last time one looks better?
i can alwaes play with my hair and had a new one again, LOL.

enjoyed the 'ton' at cindy's house
due to lotsa reasons x))

rocks.

2006-04-08T16:47:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYONE!

hahhaas. .
din update my blog for quite some time le~

just a short one with pictures i guess. .

oh yahs,
ystd ncc did something daring that i cant believe i actually did it
LOL!
but yea,
it's really my unit
i need to have my stand (:
at the very least,
i have my NCO's support.

korkor was back from NS duty in thailand last week!
he bought mum, sis, and me a crystal bracelet each!
and the crystal is real yea. xDD

mine is mixed colours! sis's is black crystals! <3

this is the FIRST present i got for this year 16th birthdae! from my dearesr korkor again! xD LOVE HIM LOTS!

it's a beads bracelet?

NO! it added into my dearest collection of. . WATCHES!

some pics taken recently. .

last week when we were doing bio practical~

ystd with junrui, mrs yeo nv come, went out to have a chat at the 5th flr staircase~ junrui saes he looks so fat in this pic,HAHA. chubby hoh? xp

with my S.P, simply too crazy during bio lessons = photo-taking lessons, HAHA. ( he's wearing yinghui's spec; im wearing jon zee's spec. )

that's about it.

i suddenly have so much feelings and thinkings towards ncc now,LOL.

2006-03-25T16:05:00.000-08:00

researched for so long alrdy
around one month i guess
reaally gonna get nokia 6280
until todae. .
realized it can only stored 500 contacts!
my current nokia 6230 can store 1000
and i have 240+ contacts now
such a waste la!
functions and style all so good!
just for a stupid contacts memory
pulled down the percentage of ppl may buy the fone

nokia 6280! favouraite fone among the others!

N70. cindy's phone x))

N90; heavy fone but with good functions. sadly,no vibration.

nokia 6280 only stores 500 contacts
N70 big and keypad too small
N90 no vibration!

what the hell mannnn~

what phones to buy!
have been doing thorough research since 12pm just now
tired alr.
shall stop. (:

WHAT FONES?

nokia preferably (:

2006-03-20T23:20:00.000-08:00

1st story~
the middle man of so many sides.

2nd story~
disappointed with them.

3rd story~
they made the wrong choice.

4th story~
never succeed.

5th story~
sorry guys.

6th story~
im not the right one to hold the responsibility
i was never a good usm
kill me for good.

toked to cindy
mannn,
really said the things i've kept inside for so long
the things i think nobody will understand
but i just dun care alr
just said it to her
so have been crying for 45 minutes alr,until now.
cry baby (-____-")

sucky olvl.

i will ROD with regrets.
no doubt about it.

2006-03-18T17:43:00.000-08:00

just wasted the one week holidae doing nothing constructive

im feeling so dead now
oh so fucking dead.
iwishyouweremineforever.

people,
my temper has turned rly bad recently
dong bu dong jiu pekcek&angry
just dun care abt my temper alright.

fuck.

2006-03-13T00:35:00.000-08:00

finally a b r e a k from the tiring&stressful school daes.

realize almost all the usm of other skools not going for supernumery,LOL.
goodluck for those going supernumery later in the morning!
yellow&white lanyard.
am waiting for you guys to have it
im proud of you guys!

sometimes, it feels good to lead in a unit.
if w/o any pressure, it will be much better.
haha.

i dare to sae
sometimes i love ncc
sometimes i dun (:

but one FACT that wun change is. .
i love my ncc platoon mates.

think im gna miss ncc times after i ROD
esp the times i had with them when we were cadets
ncc air; my once in a lifetime.

2006-03-07T20:06:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHELDON & JOSEPH! xD

one NC 16; the other M18!

damn
freaking tired todae
ystd did sheldon's present until very late
todae double periods all the wae to 2.30pm
went home
rest awhile; changed; tuitioned
just dined out wit family
have to do training plan later
freakkk~

from benedict! one of the most meaningful presents i've ever get! LOL! the grasshopper is self-fold de! usse pandan leaves i think. . love it~

`*idream-

2006-03-06T20:47:00.000-08:00

okays. .
i shall post one/two picture(s) of my 16th birthdae present everydae
it's easier that wae yea?
rather than upload/resize/post all in a dae
thats too hiong~
HAHA.

ICE CREAM CAKE FROM MUM! xD

i dreamt of us again ystd
in the canteen (:

2006-02-28T16:59:00.000-08:00

HEYS PEOPLE!
just received sms from izuan~
it's time to show off~~ xD

Best Unit Competition. .

AMKSS NCC AIR GOT A GOLD !

w0o-hOo!
90.25%~

room for improvement!
but. .
still good!
keep it up people!
aim for the eagles award or wadever it is called!

im going for physics tuition tml!
so long never go tuition le
just now called up the tuition teacher
scott recommended de
he sounds so super frendly~
gosh~
sign of relief. .
din noe todae call
tml jiu go le~
cos i wan tuesdae
but this week tuesdae is todae
so tml make up! xD
excited~
maybe going there for maths too
see how lohs~

I NEED MOTIVATION!

2006-02-28T00:58:00.000-08:00

[12.58 am]

after so many toking to cindy
i've decided to change my phone!
my mind is set!

btw. .
im gna change to nokia 6280!
omg!
its fcuking niceeeeeee!
dun see from the picture
go to the shop and see the casing!
it's out alrdy
but singapore haven sell it yet
they only received the display casing!
FREAKING NICE! xD

im waiting~~~~~
gna cut hair; change plan; change handphone; change everything i could find!

nokia 6280 here i come~~

2006-02-26T19:36:00.000-08:00

just uploaded all the pictures. .
my birthdae; valentine's dae; 4/3 klaz play; asian aerospace
damn lots~
but haven upload to photobucket&resize them
intended to write about everything since 13 feb
but think it's impossible bahs. .

it seems that every week is the same
weekdaes skool daes
go to skool; come back slp; no hw done
seems that all the saturdaes from the beginning of the skool reopening i had something on, hais
sundae morning go british council for tuition; come back slp; dinner; slp
SIAN AH!

i dun have the motivation to study alrdy
not at all. .
everyone's like chiong-ing now
while me?
still lagging behind
sec3 work all dunoo
now sec4?
more worst
and seriously something happened can make you. .
lose all the hopes for everything
lose the motivation for everything
lose the mood for everything
seriously im slacking everydae
just too lazy and moodless to move myself
my heart isnt there to study at all
and i hate those people who saes. .
' shit, i never study lehs,sure fail de. . '
when they DID study and even pass the test with flying colours
like wtf lahs. .
got study jiu sae got study lahs. .
i totally never study and wad you expect?
been failing all the test since sch reopened
except for binomial. .
hais~

tml physics test
electricity.
i really dun understand these few chapters
HAIS.
you used to teach me when i duno

just a photo for todae
4/3 class play 'a road to the west'
dunwan blog le.

i was taking a nap just now in the afternoon
and. .
i dreamt of us in the rain

2006-02-21T18:59:00.000-08:00

i changed my blog song. .
enjoy~

Movie: Pokemon the First Movie
Artist: Midnight Sons
Song: If Only Tears Could Bring You Back

How will I start
Tomorrow without you here
Who's heart will guide me
When all the answers disappear

Is it too late
Are you too far gone to stay
This one's forever
Should never have to go away

What will I do You know
I'm only half without you
How will I make it through

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I'd cry you an ocean
If you'd sail on home again
Wings of emotion
Will carry you, I know they can

Just light will guide you
And your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting
Into the arms of your true north

Look in my eyes
And you will see a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

I hold you close
And shout the words I only whispered before
For one more chance, for one last dance
There's nothing that I would not give and more

If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, what I would give
If you returned to me someday
Somehow, someway
If my tears could bring you back to me

2006-02-19T18:49:00.000-08:00

wun be blogging alrdy
until im shuang.

camera with sis also
cant upload pics
sorry cindy and qiaoyu

just fuck off people
i aint in a good mood

btw
i have no more painter

2006-02-18T10:43:00.000-08:00

one of my fav songs when i bought S.H.E album
coincidence that the date is in the lyrics

慢慢失忆　所有和你的事情必须忘记
爱的盆地　深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想　被你肯定　
在这个时候说我让你感动过

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　
做不成的爱人变成最好朋友
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　
换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　不做你朋友

慢慢心痛　没有人发现我和从前不同 (不同)
你的眼中　看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我　在这个时候对我比从前温柔 (跟温柔)

别握住我的手　说我一定会懂　
做不成的爱人变成最好朋友 (做不成的爱人变成)
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　
换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　不做你朋友

应该放晴的天气　还下雨　别这样下去　
我难过　但是说不出口

RAP:
一直逃避　
我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三慢慢经过我们一起绕过的十字街头怎么走都走不到尽头

握住我的手　说我一定会懂　
做不成的爱人变成最好朋友 (做不成的爱人变成)
别牵着我的手　想着别人脸孔　
换个方式牵手　并不会更好过
可不可以　别回头　
可不可以　就放手　
可不可以　不做你的朋友

2006-02-18T09:29:00.000-08:00

I Don't Want To Miss A Thing
Aerosmith

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Laying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

everything's ended, i still love you-

2006-02-12T20:56:00.000-08:00

im done with it. .
tada!

how was it? x))

`*3morehours-

2006-02-12T19:11:00.000-08:00

[7.11pm]

shld i give?
shopped for vdae presents ystd
saw this very nice
jiu buy le
came home 9+ started jiu piah~
foned with jianhua
todae morning woke up early piah abit
tuitioned.
came home piah again. .
so now. .
here it is!~

gy sae its sort of gay asking aa guy to bring home
maybe not giving le~
due to some other reasons too. .
no vdae presents?
hmmmmmms. .\
but people please keep quiet from jy first until vdae alright (:

materials to do the card x))

a pic i took on dno which night. .

okays. .
going continue with the puzzle liaos. .

hais~
haven study phy and chi yet.

oh yes.
forgot to mention that amkss ncc air got a very very nice QM
lol.
super impartial and nice guy!!
they've made the right choice
jason teo rawks! (:

im escaping from reality
im keeping myself so busy that i dunwan myself to think about the asshole B3
hais~
im really afraid to face that
that cruel reality~

`*valentine'sdae-

2006-02-11T02:41:00.000-08:00

wish to noe who write smthin in my student handbook?
tag at the board alright
just saw it
im very gandong
isit you cindy?
or qiaoyu?
(:
anyone who wrote it tell me alright.

cant get to slp. .

2006-02-11T01:54:00.000-08:00

[1.54 pm]

dun blame me for being dao in skool
sad 16 im gna have

fcuk it
fcuk it to the core alright
wads the use of studying?
wads the use of aimming?
wads the use of piah-ing so much during the exams?
until the very last minute then finished?
and wads the use of getting a fcuking Distinction for Oral?!
wads the useeeeE you tell me la.
take one knife and kill me
if you ppl curious abt my results
dun go asking arnd okays
i tell you straight here
right now
i got a fcuking B3!
yes.
a very fcuking one.
the yi jun alwaes do well in hmt
got a fcuking B3?!
i cant believe myself
NOT AT ALL.
FCUK CHINESE.
KNN LA!

~~some kind of present i got for my mum?~~
~~B3 sucks.~~

cried for 2 hours continuously in klaz todae
until eyes swollen like fuck
came down air room
~~skipped~~ trng
coop myself up in there until 6pm
came home cry again
like now.
uncontrollable tears
my 16th birthdae?
gna be like shit
and i haven buy his present
in this kind of state?
sucks.

you people wun noe how impt is chinese to me
its my life in studies
i survive hard with it

`*ilovejy-

2006-02-09T22:08:00.000-08:00

tml is The DAY people

the dae i've been waiting for. .
the birthdae present for my mum last year
hope it will be a good one (:

but scared han zi pulled me down ~~tremendously~~
i got one out of 5 correct
pathetic isnt it
hais~

A11111111111111111111111`!

2006-02-08T22:21:00.000-08:00

people!
vote for songs!

hahahhas~

first - wo men de gu shi By tension(current song)
second - gou gou shou By guo mei mei (is the ending song for ai de zhang men ren)
third - duan le de xuan By jay chou

xD

2006-01-31T20:17:00.000-08:00

what to do?
HAIS.

not going to blog until everything is alright.

take care ppl. .

was watching the tv
people,
please do NOT drink&drive!

2006-01-31T03:01:00.000-08:00

just now 12 plus 1 am then came back from andrew's house
his dogs super cute! xD
haahhahas~

ocean and teddy! xD

okok. .
blog aabout it some other dae
too tired now. .
gna slp. .
nites~

`*iMissDear-

2006-01-29T10:20:00.000-08:00

heys people!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
PULL YOUR EAR!

hahahhas. .
woke up just now at 8 plus
but siblings not awake yet
until now
then they woke up
LOL.
finally~
so can change and go out later~

CHU YI!

mum bought me a cute bag for new year purposes! love it! xD it's magnetic btw!

enjoy your dae people! xD

`*chu yi is a memorable dae; you noe it-

cny skool celebration

2006-01-28T17:20:00.000-08:00

yoyo!
im here again with tonnes of pictures
hahahs~
took so much time to upload and resize as usual
LOL!

ystd everyone got to wear home clothes!
theme: red orange pink maroon yellow
yeaps. .
but of cos still got people wore other colours
hahahs~

morning was making around with my sis's slash?

but sis saes very weird
so never wear. . xD

the performance?
omg~
so super duper sian!
sound system is like shit too!
the standard for the performance is dropping year after year
hais~
haven halfwae thru the performances
most of the people began to go back to class & slack
that's include me of cos
hahahas~
intended to just go back and get my hp only
but decided to stay inside

hongyi; qingkang; lionel; jon went back too
playing percussion music
hahahs~

PHOTOS TIME?

lionel was EXTORTING MONEY from everyone! xD

first was jon!

next was hongyi!! hong yi was checked by lionel! HAHA.

no choice but to surrender. . lionel walked away with the money!

last victim was yingli`! aiyooooo lionel~

he sae he's cool in this face?

how about this then? xD

was crazy taking photos in klaz then! xD

lionel & me!

qingkang & me! think he's soo cute and sunnshine-guy-looking! LOL!

of cos cant left out my sitting partner jackie tan! xD got this very farni shot,better dun post it! hahahs. . else got bashed up when skool reopens! xp

with the middle fingers hide inside our hp pouches! xD

sheldon my good frend and me (:

yingli and me! xD

me and him<3

hahhahas. . playing! xD

yee yew and angelia! i love angelia's hair! xD

angelia and me! xD MISSher. take care girl~

me; junrui; jialing x))

follow up is the act cute series of jun rui and jialing! xDDD i like the third and fourth one!

the two good frends! xD

sooooo cute!!! xD

playing poker? opps* got snapshot by him. .

hahahs! was box by me! xD

my name made by jackie with the CIP stickers! xD

jackie changing in klaz! ROFL!

enjoyed?
LOL!

after that slacked around in the klazroom
then went down x))
so dear went out with his mum
i joined the UG people + andrew
went j8
ate lunch at pasta mania
hahahs~
first time go there
LOL!
mountain tortoise. . xp
angelia joined us later
intended to watch movei
but the queue is too long
walked around
not noeing wad to do. .
2 plus 3 alot people left le
left me; jocelyn; yiliang; alvin; wanjoo; yuzhe; andrew; yinghui; ghimyang
so went back to the cinema area there again
but the movie tix is selling fast le

so. .

decided to go jubilee!
yeay!
watched 'I Not Stupid Too'
PEOPLE!
watch it okays!
my recommendation!
super touching
cried a few times
man. .
not forgetting my pri skool frend natalie is in the show acting as jing jing!
LOL!
kinda surprised yet proud of her
hahhahas. .
surprisingly bo hao was in the same theatre as us
LOL!

went home after that. .
used com; bathed; eat
bo hao passed me the filiming which i helped him to film
LOL!
got one part is hug scene
its the first time i helped him that time film de
not the second time
so abit stiff in this kinda thing
makes it looks so weird. .
argh~
duibuqi.
very tired
fell aslp when i afk the com awhile. . xD

chinese new year eve le. .
i still dunhave the new year mood. .
like normal daes like that. .
hmmmms. .
going grandms'a hous later to have dinner as usual (:

btw
takecare people!
dun fall sick!
andd goodluck for your hongbaos hunt! xD
have a nice new year people!
lastly. .
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE!

`*my life is in RAINBOW colour just becos of you-

2006-01-26T22:13:00.000-08:00

HEY PEOPLE!

yi jun's blog is alive again!
HAHA.

todae UGs all so unhappy about the allocation
where got such things one?
sports & performing arts got the priority
ask them go and bang the wall lahs!
was worried for BB
hais. .
cheer up guys!

missed the 4/3 birthdae party for the january babies
argh~
took a picture with cindy in klaz after that

hmmms. .
last saturdae had CIP
wasnt a happy one
and the organisation is soooooo KP!
made us amksians sooooooo P I S S E D *
argh~

eniwae!
i saw belinda LEE and the gao ji mei aka chun chun!
HEHE
they are soooo much skinnier and beautiful than on tv
skinny until i cant recognized them at first
and had to confirm with the others (joce&yl)
haahhas~
they donated $10 and $2 respectively (:

so early go orchard where got people de
only thos ang mohs
but they super generous!
majority gave notes
even got non-singaporeans gave pounds! xD

9am until 12 plus my companions and i jiu stop le
we tried continuously within this period of time lohs
but cant got much money

back to the collection point
kena rejeccted
like wtf?
got other tins is much lighter than mine can?
and at that time i super bad mood alrdy
still ask me wan go for another 1/2 round not
so i keep on refusing
so they reflected on me lohs
no cip point
LOL.
wadever~

after which,
had a heart-to-heart tok downstairs my block with dear
super fun
TokCockSession!
darn rocks can
finally said out all that troubled me that time xD
was like so relax after that. .

hmmms. .
sundae british council as usual
nothing much (:

ystd 25 january is jackie's birthdae!
hahahas.
sitting partner! xD
good that you were happy after that (:
next year or rather every year better had a happy one hoh!
i warn you! :P
eniwae
made a card for my sitting partner!
im proud of my workpiece
HAHA.

first page to start with..

finished the front page on that morning,LOL!

inside! xD

CCA open house pictures, kinda late though x))

jocelyn!

gian jie and karen! they were making this funny&cute actions,LOL!

jia min in no.1

yiliang in overall! (he was complaining about the uniform too small,HAHA.)

thats about it for todae!

tml first time in sec skool not going back jsps i guess
so little ppl go
somemore we wearing home clothes
go inmust wear skool-u
hais~

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! xD

`*the important place that you hold in my heart<3

2006-01-23T23:57:00.000-08:00

LOL!
better blog it before it turns 24 of jan. .
2 more min! xD

SixMonthsOfUnderstanding&Love. xD

`*HUGGGGGGS<3

2006-01-18T00:16:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY JAY CHOU! xD

you're 27! xD
looking forward to your next live concert in singapore!

2006-01-17T17:25:00.000-08:00

people!
listen up alright!

tomorrow is a BIGGGG DAY!
18 JANUARY!

it's. .

JAY CHOU'S 27th BIRTHDAE!!!!!! xD

make sure you wish him a very big big happy birthdae tml!

-jaychoucraze-

todae's timetable is SIAO!

grrrr. .
and that stupid flu is making me so 'grrr'

4 subjects todae
BUT!
all double periods!
english; maths; biology; ss

wth right?
makes me super wan to slp

i miss mrs rama!!
now mrs veda teach us biology
makes me dun feel like listening in klaz
sooooo boring!

maths now binomial
quite alright
though sometimes ting bu dong wad the teachers saeing
i got do homework nowadaes
people got shocked when they heard me saeing i did my hw
HAHA.

im gna chnge alright
be a guai girl
do homework
provided i got time lahs of cos
hahahas~

so fast jiu third week le. .

recently dun feel like blogging
super lazy
and super no time
if you see i nv do hw
means im slping
if you are not seeing me slping
then im doing my hw
LOL!~
crap*

new year is coming
but
i dun have that kind of feeling
like normal daes like that
few daes ago after i bathe
saw the new year's commercial on the tv
then i rmb
'eh,yah hoh,new year is coming. . '
(-___-")

have been thinking about my sixteenth birthdae this year
LOL.
valentines dae too
andd many many birthdaes!
jackie. .
cheryl. .
yi liang. .
jun rui. .
felix. .

so many february babies!

`*LASTtime-

2006-01-08T22:30:00.000-08:00

hahahas. .

im happy happy~ xD
zhong suan song xie le xia lai~

ystd sec1 orientation
todae british council tuition
slp!

LOL!

no time catch up my hw and stuff which i intended to do le
cos next week going changkat to help. .
argh~

`*OURpromise-

2005-12-25T01:41:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! xD

sian. .
shld i go tml?
LOL!
btw
clashed with mings they all de dinner also
so. . . . . .
how?

btw. .

present for him!

nice dress? below is those 'bubbly' type one. . xD

like the furry part!

enojoy your dae people! xD

`*CRAZYoverYOU-

2005-12-23T00:42:00.000-08:00

one more month to go for 6 months
and many many more months to go for the 'as long as we can last de date'
meanwhile. .

`*5th MONTH of SWEETLOVE <3

yee yew's birthdae~

2005-12-16T00:29:00.000-08:00

BORED!

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAE YEE YEW! xD

SWIT SIXTEEN!

karen's performance

2005-12-14T17:12:00.000-08:00

my legs are aching!
especially my thighs!!!
GOSH!
cant stand properly
andd have MUCH difficulty climbing stairs!
pds pds pds~
LOL.

hmmmm =/

just went to look for the chinese physician
cos my right shoulder problem is happening again
ache like hell
especially during pds
buay tahan~
hais~
doesnt seem to recover no matter what
shower me with love; care & concern?

sundae 11 december

went out to watch karen's performance at tampines
afternoon went gy's house to meet him and jy firsst
5 plus set off to mac
had dinner~
took bus 22 there

think karen's group performance is the best among all
andd the lighting is sooooo COOL! xD
LOVE IT MAN~~
proud of my nu-er. (:

ciaos when it's almosst near finale
bus back amk
sent me home
yeaps
thats it.

pictures~

clothes for the dae; kinda like the top-

legs,LOL! snapshot-

yes? wanna fight with the chairs? LOL! *PINK-TEE*

now presents the scissors, paper, STONE! xD

on the bus. . ghim yang. . xD

me and him, he looks so tired-

on the fone! LOL! (he's really toking. .)

`*MISSthosetimes-

disappointed. . sir? non-sir?

2005-12-12T23:26:00.000-08:00

hmmms
not in the mood toodae
cos of some reasons

i HATE slow learners!
slow learners DRAGGED everyone down
sucks right?

oh well
im talking about myself
yea (:
aint the right person to learn

sian. .

i dun like the feeling
the feelings changed

we alwaes sae. .

respect the person
not respect the rank

i DO respect you no matter WHAT you are
i believe everyone does. .
hais~
i rather everything remains
no one went for the ~~clt course~~

sir?
mdm?

makes us sound so farrrr away
the close feelings. .
is fading. .
slowly. .
slowly will be gone.
serious
somedae
sometime
somehow

YUCKS.

hate that
todae even not wearing uniform
others calls the person that
the feeling is gone.
gone gOnE GONE!

they changed the date from wednesdae to tml
i rather it be wednesdae
so i have the mood
one dae to rest
unfortunately
it's not.

tml?
most probably not going.

todae a cadet encouraged me instead
how great is that.
how sucks the usm is.
WOW

`*changed-

2005-12-12T00:56:00.000-08:00

saw it at yueyun's post
tried.

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (not true,hahhas~)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

will blog about todae tml
am tooooooooooo tired alrdy~

HAPPY BIRTHDAE SZE FONG! xD

back from camp pin andd 50th clt intake pop

2005-12-10T17:46:00.000-08:00

back from camp pinnacle!
YEAY!~
kinda boring though
everydae, except for the first dae, went to excursions
i only love the fourth dae
i just love the nature, the sea (:
went for 2 joy rides and got the chance to board onto a battleship
the joy ride in the morning was super fun!
its a very fast craft
it's in the NDU = naval diving unit
its darn fast i tell youu
one ride 8 ppl
everybody got wet in our no.4!
esp the last person
totally wet from head to toe
hahahas~
enjoyed it!
when the cold wind blows~~

okays. .
i have a total of 41 pictures for youu all!
hahahahs~
ystd afternoon break camp
evening went to meet my dear!
yeay~
LOL!
then after that i went back to HQ for the 50th CLT intake POP!
IZAUNNNNN~~~
LOL!
of cos still have retsel eehc and hakkim! xD
finally~~
okays. .
there goes the pictures. .
ENJOY~

( now listening to 93.3 duno why all nice nice songs continuously, somemore all are male and female tgt sing de songs, damn rocks!)
1st wu zhong xian & duno who - wad xian one =x
2nd ni de yan jing - xiong tian ping & xu ru yun
3rd cyndi and zun xie zhi - duno wad song
4th guang dao zhi lian - mo wen wei & zhang hong liang
5th lin jun jie & jin sha - bei feng chui guo de xia tian
6th liang jing ru & duno who - zhi neng bao zhe ni guang liang
7th xu yuan - gu ju ji & liang yong qi (one of my MOST fav songs SINCE young!)
8th fan xiao xuan & wang li hong - xue ren!

present those non-related one first. .
LOL!

at blk 246. .

izuan is somewhere! spot him? hahahas~

before the start. .

the flag party!

the march pass. .

raynard from chss. .

spot izuan again?!

sir bertram.

now shall presents those we noe. .

mdm yue yun! she looks so darn cute in no.5!

RETSEL EEHC! hahahas,cos i was making noise there. =x

lester with 'HIS' sword,hahahas~

hakkim! xD

jonathan and benedict! one puts on sir's rank, one takes out cdt rank,hahahs!

i helped izuan to put his rank! YEAY~ he teared cos he waited for this rank for very long le. .

my camp pinnacle PC! sir hadi! he's darn cute one,LOL!

me with sir hadi! charlie 7 cum pink monkey!

lester and his swords!

lester and jocelyn! ah gong & sun-nu. .

lester with his syndicate mate. .

lester andd me!

izuan's self portraits!

izuan and his frend!

lamer jocelyn and izuan. . the fun part is. . she tip-toed! xD

izuan and me! love this picture! FUNshot*

my ex ex staff izuan and ex staff yusni! xD

izuan and my ex APS mastura!

SIR izuan and MDM mazlinah. .

shall presents the. . BROTHERS! brotherhood*

lastly. . us* and him*

yeay~
finished!
spent so much time uploading; adjusting; publishing
LOL!
enjoy it?

tml gna go and see karen's performance with the same bunch of ppl!
take care guys!

`*my love for you is never fake-

2005-12-03T23:50:00.000-08:00

i miss him badly =x

stupid damn ass
ian asked me to go hq todae for land ssc pop todae
but i dunwan
ended up wad?
bb happened to be at amoy quee to do climbing course
wth~
missed the chance of seeing him
arrggghhhh~

dun feel like going camp pin at all
hais hAiS HAIS~
some more bh not going
he's going for diving course
ps kia! xp
plus plus. .
central kias all not staying overnite!
UNFAIR!
HMPH!
lonely lonely~
I DUNWAN GOOOO~~

mondae he's booking out
while i book in
duno shld i or shld i not look forward to mondae
but i noe wad's my feelings now
dun look forward at all
camp pin sucks.
sucks sUcKs SUCKS!

`*iMISShim-

reply to tags.

2005-12-02T13:17:00.000-08:00

[1.17 pm]

wow
seems like i have alot of ppl to reply back
hahahhas~
okok
here it goes. .
as usual
starting from the earliest tag. .

[replies to tags]

jewel: hahahas. . MY WHEATGRASS JUICE! youu owe me one drop now! bleahs~ xp

junrui: heys. . zhi dao jiu haos,youu also never blog lohs. . tag more! xD take care okays. . stay cheery!

huisia: hahhaas,lazy and dunwan blog about it. . hehes. . sorry~

JAson: LOL! first dae is the most tiring dae. . not too bad bahs. . (:

karenn: hahhaas,wow. . im being loved by my nu-er. . LOL! xie xie! and youu can also sweet with yh. . muahahahahs~ lbh heck him lahs. .

ian: hahahas,i will link youu later. . i only skip meals when im not hungry,LOL! that's wad meals are for wad,fill up your stomach,hahahas~ of course i will sleep more if i have the chance to,hahahs~ thats me mahs,panda. . owl or bat also can,cos i work at nite,sleep in the morning and afternoon. . ROFL! xD thanks for congratulating! and congrats to you too! company best! xD

jiamin: hahahas,i will smile lahs. . xDDD tired and busy,used to it jiu haos. . (:

cindyYeo: of course mine is nice,purple mahs. . xD thanks.

mark: hey there! hahhas. . thanks yea. . andd seriously i never do anything,they just anyhow take candidates and only choose through the so-called interview. . i also duno how they choose one. . take care yea. .

jocelyn: hahhahas. . no problem! xD benedict did most of the job,LOL!

vivien: yoyoyo!!! hahahas. . yes,i will try to handle them. . (: smile of cos i will. . youu take care too. . though we alwaes seems to keep on saeing the same things online, but, want to tell youu, i see youu got some close feelings,hahhas. . i also duno why. . andd sometimes makes me got alot of things to tell youu,but duno how to phrase in words. . argh~ wadever,thats me. (:

2005-11-29T01:47:00.000-08:00

happy 15th birthdae jocelyn!
tml back fromm ssc then decorate nice nice
currently damn tired. (:

back. maligned. open hse. camp

2005-11-27T00:04:00.000-08:00

back everyone
just had my bath and lunch cum dinner cum supper
was sleeping just now
had been skipping meals becos of the 'busi-ness'
eniwae.

LING B H SUCKS BIG TIME CAN.
bloody hell youu
want to malign me right
what right do youu have youu tell me?
andd where i go is your business isit?
i dun even have any relation with the consent forms
what for youu 'CARE SOOO MUCH' about me hurhs?
WOW
sae you as a teacher care so much blah blah
andd youu BLOODY HELL MALIGNED ME!
MALIGNANCY.
for those ppl who duno me
malignancy IS what i HATE MOOOOSSSSSTTTTT!
I WILL OWN UP IF I HAVE DID SOMETHING MIND YOU!
call whoever you want alright!
i did NOTHING wrong
becos youu malign me
becos youu 'CARED' so much about me
made me MORE dulan right
made me gave attitude to your colleuges right
made me DESPISE you right
spoilt my mood right
GO AND EAT SHIT CAN.
FCUKER~
middle finger for you can.
can cAn CAN!
youu better mind what youu said
one more time you malign me
you're doom.
[ ppl, i noe this doesnt reflect any good things on me, but, who cares? ]

few activities for the past few daes
posting camp; preparation for open house; open house
esp yesterdae and todae
made me PISSED OFF LIKE SHIT!
same goes for the other ncos
[i once respect you
but not anymore]

when i free or feel like blogging about the activities then i blog bahs
mondae jiu senior spec le
i haven even go and take a look at what drills im tested on
and haven prepare anything
gonecase.

+tags' reply+

(from the earliest tag onwards)

vivien darling: HI DARLING! miss youu ya? just feel like toking to you sometimes when im down and sian. . miss those times in parade square (:

jia min: no substitution,hahas~ xp

ms crapola: hi my newest daughter,LOL. the film i also haven see yet,hahahas~ misss youuu tooooo~ (:

jocelyn: she's alwaes like that,xi guan jiu haos. xD

qy: I KNOW! damn shit lohs! mrs rama's lesson so interesting,her lessons are like so damn boring~

fe/ix: haahahas. . i will i will yea. . i never come online mahs. . how to tag. . miss my tags right? muahahahs~

JAson: heys,thanks alright? hahahas. . xie xie guan xin. . youu take care too. .

jolyn: ohh. . hihi! hahhas. . yahs,i noe who you are. . if not wrong,LOL. szeloong's nu-er right. . YES! JAY CHOU DAMN ROCKS! hahahas~ andd take care ya. persevere andd get back what you want. (:

ian: hahahs. . im fine. . why i never come online for so long, bet youu noe the reasons by now. . hahahas~ zhao gu zi ji, dun skip meals liaos. .

+end+

sorry dear~
for the first time
i seriously de fa pi qi on you becos of my mood
i do feel xintong okays
andd thanks for accepting my everything
even my attitude
todae
even i shouted at you 'what you wan lahs?' outside the skool gate
youu din even angry at me
andd youu still tok to me nicely
thanks dear
thanks for all the bao rong
thanks for being so kind; gentle and sweet alwaes
i've nothing more to grumble about
we shall break the record okays
cos we din have any quarrels since our story starts
hope it can be like that for the longest we can stay tgt
wo men de yue hui
ke bie wang le (:

`*i will pray hard or try everything just to get the best for you-

tired

2005-11-17T23:47:00.000-08:00

super tired recently
actually dun intend to blog one
im now currently forcing myself to be awake
mondae to wednesdae whole dae air base attachment
todae morning went to skool to have ncc briefing
changed andd went to dhoby gauht at 11+pm
reached the pool there at about 12 noon
darn farni
i reached there
i suddenly forgot which floor despite several visits
i went to press every floors
when it reaches each floor andd if there's someone outside
so paiseh can
hahahas~
then stopped at 5
called dear and knew its 6 (-__-")
i was like. .
just now got go lehs. .
how cum never recognise it
felt so xin wei when i finally saw him after er. .
2 daes? =x
the feeling was just so great (:

played until 2 plus
went to ps foodcourt makan
then rushed to j8
the show is supposed to be 3.30 pm eniwae
we entered the cinema hall at about 3.40 pm
the show started at about 5 minutes later
Harry Potter and The Goblet Of Fire~
the show was not too bad
hahahas~
but i prefered the young harry potter
looks much cuter
hahahas~

2/5`o4 students went back chalet
so stayed around at j8 with jackie; wan joo; ying hui
hahhas~
went back amk at around 8pm
met bo hao to discuss about the filming tml
helping him to film again
this time round is for the wad skool filming awards de
gna have accidents scene (-___-")
was told that im gna lie on the road
i was like. .
wth~
eniwae
gna have blood scene
so troubling of wad to wear cos i bu she de stain my shirt
he chiong to central and bought me a top from samuel & kevin
rushed to my house andd give me try
LOL!
cant deny he has very nice taste for clothes
hahhas~

okays okays~
really canot tahan alrdy
super duper tired.
ciaos ppl~

`*you have become part and parcel of my life-

confidante - mings

2005-11-14T21:19:00.000-08:00

well
im not going to get angry easily again ever
my confidante - mr yeap
mings
hahahhs~
thanx to him yea
next time shall listen more to him
andd i will learn something everytime
most imptly
i shant be a problematic gf (:
xia ding jue jue jue jue xin

im going to control my temper liaos
but of course with the help of mr yeap's lecture
LOL.
andd we made a few deals
hahahahs.
one of them i will treat him dinner
provided it happens
hahahas~
once in a b l u e moon (:

thursdae harry potter movie
11 tickets
supposed to be. .
me; jiyong; cheryl; jackie; yiliang; felicia; karen; yinghui; ghimyang; jac; wan joo
those who CARE to come
then you come
if you dun wan come
then nvm.
it's at my loss now if i got angry
will age faster
hahahas~ xD

im willing to change for the better becos of you*
i will make that* happen

`*iloveLAgong-

bah~ http://numanumadance.com

2005-11-13T22:42:00.000-08:00

third post of the dae alrdy. .

gonna watch harry potter on 17 n0v!
YEAY~
mum fetched me to j8 and bought the tickets just now
11 tickets~ (:
had a hard time deciding the seats online before going there
but everything is alright now.

on the wae saw a dangerous scene
the road along the amk kfc
there was a taxi from the last lane (furthest away from kfc)
suddenly turn 90 degrees left and went straight
i was like
wth~
andd it went horizontally across the 3 lanes andd almost bang into ppl
surprisingly there's NO ONE in the taxi when i turned back when i was in the car!
well. =_-"

kelwin sent me this!
PEOPLE!
SEE THIS!
IT MAKES ME LAUGH LIKE SHIT!
DUN MISS IT!
AND PLEASE ON THE SPEAKER!

http://numanumadance.com

have ncc attachment for the next 3 daes
gonna meet the ppl everydae at central mac 7am.
wow (:
currently listening to tension wo men de gu shi
loveya <3

`*im scared-

what i expect is the little love that is fromm you

2005-11-13T15:25:00.000-08:00

[3.25 pm]

had a damn weird dream yesterdae
andd having suffocating de experience in real life when dreaming
so was kind of woken up becos of that
(-___-")
din bath yesterdae =x
so todae woke up jiu bath le!
morning bathing is soooo refreshing!
felt so shuang
hahahahhas~
nothing to do
felt much relax now
not much admin anymore (:
but still got alot of stuffs to settle of course
but nvm.
adapt to it bahs
cos i have no choice
but anywae i noe there's alwaes dear behind me to support me

i dun expect a luxury life
i dun expect billions and millions
i dun expect a perfect life
what i expect is the little love that is from you
and that is more than enough.

im leading a normal life like any other

`*teng wo; xiang wo; ai wo-

fo tiao qiang

2005-11-13T00:06:00.000-08:00

[12.06am]

first time had fo tiao qiang (buddha jump over the wall)
taste not really special
LOL!
too full alrdy.
andd too tired to go bath
how?
sleep?
hahahas~

`*missing youu like crazy; i mean it-

tired; buc; ncc; arrggghhhh

2005-11-12T04:06:00.000-08:00

im damn fcuking pissed now
noe wad's the time now?
its fcuking 3.38 am
andd im not slping
or rather forced to wake up and do buc
did until 12plus am just now
thinking to rest for awhile
cos im fcuking tired
but who noes i fell aslp
sister woke me up just now andd told me about my laptop
andd i woke up saeing. .
S-H-I-T !
chiong to the laptop straight
FCUK FCUK FCUK can.
damn fcuk.
cant i just sleep?
one dae that i can finally sleep well
apparently NOT now.
if youu cant continue to read
then i suggest youu. .
fcuk off~
this is supposed to vent my anger
but things will be better after it
supposed to go out tml
noeing that tml have to replaced by doing of proposal
abit sad
or rather a big fat sad to noe about it
my life sucks.
but have to accept it
thats my life
life IS a pathetic with no enjoyments
that's it.
FCUK.
arse-hole~

just now 8-9 plus was sharing xin shi with ming feng
cried all i wan~
duno why todae just wan to pour everything to him instead of anbody else
yes.
thanx okays~
though it doesnt solve everything
but at least. .
it did help
it did stop my tears
it did everything.
thanx for being there for me like how youu did last time
never failed to be a listening ear
now we both found the special one
hope we do treasure them
andd i noe youu definitely will
seriously. .
sorry about last time. .
but thanx for those nice memories during that period of time
memories are meant to be kept
time flies
noe youu for about 1-2 years+ alrdy?
hahahahs~
[actually the original note for youu is much longer, but the blog got error when i post, have to re-write again, which i dun rmb all wad i wrote just now]
andd youu. .
better dun regret for not able to save the lost one
youu noe wad im toking about. . (:
so many things changed yea
do take great care of yourself hoh
we from so many become so many
now become hao peng you again
any problems can cum look for me too
andd lastly
gna sae. .
HI~
andd. .
BYE~
LOL.

going to do the buc alrdy
accept it bahs

`*maybe or perhaps; i2needs2yous1more1me1than-

2005-11-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

feeling tired now~
yawnnnnns*

nan zuo ren
had been lectured for duno how many daes alrdy
becos of ncc obviously
detailed info shant sae
those who noe jiu haos
tml another lecture again
hais~
i just wan a peaceful life
with enjoyments
but too bad
life isnt like this.

`*you are alwaes the one who makes me smile-

2005-11-10T03:34:00.000-08:00

bOo-hOo!
second post of the dae!
hahahahas~
im sleeping at 4 am todae again!
LOL!
just finished video conversation with jun rui
he's slping alrdy
im listening to jay's songs now
hahahhas~
very tired actually
but i wun sleep peacefully even i sleep
hais~
okays. .
oh yes
my maths gonecase alrdy
never do hw
gna sleep later?
hmmmms. .
deng yi xia zai shuo bahs

`*tata-

ming xing ou xiang!

2005-11-10T00:36:00.000-08:00

[12.36 a.m]

the klaz was 'great' todae
LOL!
it's 8.00 - 8.10 am alrdy
andd yet the klaz consist of 15 people
LOL!
pathetic =x
they went mac eat
dunwan attend mrs sim history lessons
abit sad though
but cant deny her lessons are rather boring =x

eniwae.

just now watched the 'ming xing ou xiang' Star Idol on channel 8 with my family
exclude my korkor
cos he's in NS
we were toking that nowadaes so many star idols' shows
very wu liaos
but inside
i was thinking that
we cant deny that it do attract the singaporeans to watch
that's what the mediacorp supposed to do wad
hahahhas~
the competition need $10 too
mediacorp also earn money
eniwae
we were sitting near the tv andd laughing here and there
enjoyed it
we dun normally sit together and watch tv and had fun
LOVE THEM!
hahahas~
the ming xing ou xiang is kind of farni
andd some made me wah lao here andd there
they simply so bhb (-__-")
some gays too =x

PEOPLE!
PLEASE SUPPORT TAN YAN & ALBERT SEE CHUN HAN!

i think Tan Yan is very outstanding among the girls
she's looks extraordinary from others
andd gave a damn frendly look
my sister agreed too!

OMG!
die die must support ALBERT SEE CHUN HAN!
he's fcuking CUTE! xD
REAL CUTE!
17 only!~
see him on tv
dun see this picture
i cant find any nice ones
cos i only saw one from the mediacorp
which is wad im going to post
SUPPORT HIM KEAS!
HE'S SOOOOO CUTE! xp

YEAY~
so must support these TWO!
NO OTHERS!
wahahahhahas~

sick of poolroom =x

sick of ncc admin

`*i love spicygong <3-

bathing late; eating late

2005-11-09T02:37:00.000-08:00

have been bathing late recently
not until 11pm i wun bath =x
or maybe before that lazy to bath
todae
came home
6 plus slept until just now 11 plus near 12
12 am went to bath
1 am had my dinner!
LOL!
pro right. . =x
so now my food haven digest yet
think im going to sleep at 3 plus later again (-__-")
ROFL~

i dun like
i really dun like
i dunwan to be one
useless
sucks.

HEI SE YOU MO ROCKS!!!
IM LOVIN' IT!!!

OLD SONGS SO RAWKS!

but

NEW SONGS ROCKS TOO. (:

so tired alrdy
just now after i bath i alrdy feeling tired again
i really like a pig
sleep andd sLeEp andd SLEEP!
(-______-")

tomorrow conquer O's de subjects are so boring!
history; english; physics; maths
i hate history and physics!!!
SUCKS!

`*sometimes i just wonder-

frendster profile!

2005-11-08T02:10:00.000-08:00

just finished doing the profile stuffs in frendster
spent around 1 hour doing it le
just added music to it!
getting excited!!!
hahahahas~
go and take a look bahs
though it's simple
but i think it's nice =x
LOL!
at least i like it
going to sleep le
sooo tired alrdy.
another 4 hours of sleep de dae
hais~
conquer O sucks
but youu make my dae

hei se you mo rocks.

`*im missing youu-

late for skool

2005-11-07T22:20:00.000-08:00

well
first time late for school
8.30 am stepped into the klazroom with lionel todae
klaz supposed to start at 8 am
but becos we sent our frends for spec course at HQ
so ya. .
late. (:

nothing much.
ciaos~

[thanks cheryl (:]

`*im trying to speak up; letting youu understand me-

goodluck for those going spec! blog songs - vote!

2005-11-06T15:27:00.000-08:00

VERY BEST OF LUCK FOR THOSE GOING SPEC COURSE TOMORROW!
charlie rawks yea.
go to spec course dun ganjiong hoh
must relax
try your best
GET THE AWARD! (:
even if never get
it's okays
just do your best there
try to get the IC and show your potentials yea
DUN EVER BE AFRAID!
GOODLUCK!
gna miss youu guys. .

people!
i cant decide what background songs to put now
help me vote!

first - (remain as the song i have now,dun change)

second - hei se mao yi (jay)

third - shan hu hai (jay)

fourth - ye qu (jay)

fifth - lang man shou ji (jay)

sixth - fa ru xue (jay)

seventh - tanning in the sunray (initial-d)

2005-11-05T00:30:00.000-08:00

GU PAI! xD

`*woaini-

ghim yang's birthdae

2005-11-04T00:10:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAE GHIM YANG!

on the 3rd november
JING YANG! xp

went out todae with the same bunch of people (:
supposed to meet dear and gy for pool at 10a.m at amk mrt station
but i was late
out of the house at arnd 9.58a.m
LOL!
but din noe an unexpected surprise was waiting for me downstairs my block!
hahahas~
hmmmms. .
reached dhoby gauht pool at 10.44 am
but opened at 11am
so waited (:
played until 1pm
halfwae thru phoebe and cheryl came
went ps later
.
. .
. . .
. . SKIP . .
. . .
. .
.
went orchard walk walk
nothing special
went home early with dear; phoebe; yiliang; felicia
others went pool again
was tired while in the train
fell asleep
LOL!
came back sleep until 9 plus
bathe and had my dinner
tried to understand the amaths just now
cant understand
so here i am, blogging. (:

eniwae

dun intend to type everything which i typed on tuesdae which gotta error
just briefly said. .
first!
mondae was my MUM'S BIRTHDAE!
LOVE YOU!
miss AW LUO LING'S BIRTHDAE
adina's father's birthdae
andd. .
duno =x
LOL!
think still have
so. .
HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO ALL!
went shopping with mum and sis
spent lots of money which we never spend before
once in a while
hahahas~
okays. .

andd. .
tuesdae. .
HAPPY 101th DAE! <3
share something i find meaningful with everyone
alvin told me. .
he said
counting the dates are useless
so what if we count the dates?
what's the most important is still. .
that we are still together
sweet isnt it? (:

chinese paper was alright
except for the paper 2 han zi
those i rmb
i wrote it wrongly
those i dun remember
i guess and tyco got some correct
paper 1 kind of tense up
cos i only started my zuo wen at 9.15 am
so left 45 minutes
ying yong wen; 4 pages
zuo wen; 3 pages
piah like shit
as usual. =x
and finished at 9.58 am
LOL!

think i write until here bahs
oh yes
gna be very busy during the november
after the conquer O's programme
i have camp every week
hais~
sucks man
andd i just now see the conquer O's timetable
makes me sian diao
everydae same subject
can die man

november timetable

first week - conquer O
second week- conquer O
third week - 14 to 16 sembawang air base camp
fourth week - 22 to 24 skool camp ; 25 to 26 amkss showcase
fifth week - last 3 daes 28 to 30 senior specs camp

december timetable

second week alrdy dead - 5 to 9 camp pinnacle
last week - 3/3 chalet

so i left a few weeks or rather daes for my preparation for O levels?
he sae i shld start preparing liaos
bit sian diao though
but my results really can get to nowhere

conquer O sucks big time.

JAY ROCKS.

`*your unconditioned love-

2005-11-03T00:54:00.000-08:00

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory

You want to have your cake... and everyone else's.Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too!You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship.You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions.

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture.From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

What Language Should You Learn?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

Your IQ Is 80

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average
Your Verbal Intelligence is Below Average
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average
Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest:
You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.
At Your Lowest:
You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.
In Love:
You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.
How You're Attractive:
You are very affectionate and inspire trust.
Your Eternal Question:
"Am I Respected?"

What's" Your Power Color?

2005-11-01T22:53:00.000-08:00

WAH LAO!
I TYPE SO MUCH
IT SAES GOT ERROR WHEN I PUBLISH POST!
BO GIAN LIAOS LAHS!

HAPPY 101th DAE!

OTHERS NEXT TIME THEN TPE AGAIN LAHS!
IM PISSSSSSSSSED!

HAPPY 3 MONTHS! <3

2005-10-23T00:11:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 3rd MONTH DEAR! <3

holding to you as tightly as i can
but if one dae i have to let go
i will
for i wan to see you happy
meanwhile
we are one (:

`*i love you-

play pool,dohby gauht

2005-10-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

hihi~
woke up at 10+ am
realized received msg from him and miss call at 9+ and 10+ a.m
but i never on my handphone. .
so. .
yuppx. . (:
11pm sae 11.20pm at amk mrt station to meet them
which was like. . wth?
LOL!
i was still lying on the sofa and haven brush my teeth!
so faster chop chop 11.30pm jiu chiong out le
reach there then tell me change time to 1215
haahahs~
but saw ghim yang and yiliang were already there le

eniwae.

went dhoby gauht to play pool
with. .
him; jackie; cheryl; ghim yang; yi liang; shiuan; greogory; karen; ying hui
yee yew,alvin and wan joo joined us at around 3+ 4pm?
we started playing when it's around 1 pm
played until 4+pm
went to ps to eat long john (:
he had to reach home early
so we left ghim yang they all at long john
abit dunwan to go home early though
but no one pei him go home ):
so went home together! x))

came home
7+pm went out with my family to eat
too bad sis had to work
so left me; korkor; dad; mum
went to GoodWood Park Hotel!
long time never go there le
still remember when i was young
alwaes go there eat one
the atmosphere damn rocks! xD

damn shit
tml he has kayaking course
actually ncc air also have one!
but me and ben never reply to mr tong's email
hais~
so tml got one land cadet; red cross; npcc andd bb (:

`*wo men de gu shi; bu bian-

chalet

2005-10-20T23:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAE IZUAN! xD

slept from 4+pm to just now 9pm
but due to some stuffs
i have to force myself to wake up

mood recently is damn bad
so pardon for my mouthful of vulgarities =x
hahahhas
mr tan bo hao
please cheer up too (:

came back home from pasir ris chalet at 3+ 4
damn tired
we went bowling andd bbq ystd nite
chicken wings are as nice as usual x))
played pillow fight and bed fight at nite =x
shared the room of 2 bed 2 mattresses with janice; alvin; yee yew; gabriel
sleeping budddies keep on change and ji siao
LOL!
canot sleep
andd gabriel 'bitch' here andd there
cos he said bastards not nice to call (-__-")
from 12 plus? or wad?
lying on the bed; playing
until 4 plus then sleep
LOL!
late hurhs. .
woke up at 9+ a.m
then 11 plus chiong aracde until 2+ 3pm
hahahhas~
damn it
spent near $20 on aracde
LOL!
andd alvin got a dog and pillow for me!
at first i was like saeing that dog is cute
then he go play that machine
for the first time in his life
he won!
hahahas~
somemore is once try jiu bingo le! xD
followed by the pillow after a few tries
wahahahahhas~

the dogg! xD

the pillow!

picture with yee yew! abit blur though (:

oh yes!
i can mian qiang tie up my fringe alrdy!

pictures from 3/3 steamboat dae!
for more pictures
please go to cindy's blog
hahahhaas~
saw szeloong,randy,grala and de qiang on that dae too (:

quan jia fu! but jun rui and jiyong went up first. the eyes are horrible,hahas~

jiyong & cindy,this picture nice right? LOL! xD

daytona - jiyong; jun rui; cindy! cindy alwaes got first,hahahas~

okays. .
that's all for todae i guess
tml gna get back biology; maths; chinese papers
heng ahs~
tml get back de papers not that cham
all will make me relax one
mondae and tuesdae then hiong
physics lahs; ss lahs~
all gonecase. =x

gonna have training tml
hais~
take care people.

`*dear dEaR DEAR-

skeleton key

2005-10-18T23:09:00.000-07:00

too lazy to blog about details nowadaes
so shorriex
went movie with shiuan,cheryl,jackie,jac,felicia,yi liang,ghim yang,andrew,de wei and gregory todae
skeleton key
a very nice horror movie
hahahas
not really that scary
just. .
damn thrilling!
hahhaas.
a must watch (:

shall play until saturdae then start my revision on o level chinese
going to 2/3 chalet tml!
yeay!!!
miss those times (:

gna sleep now
tata.

`*youu are alwaes on my mind <3

steamboat!

2005-10-18T00:50:00.000-07:00

just came back not long from our 3/3 steamboat!
rawks rawks! xD
soooooo funnn~~
yum yum!
update tml!
sooooo tired now.
tml still have meeting
shall sleep now
if not. .
lols~

love youu dear <3.

numb

2005-10-16T23:09:00.000-07:00

one disgraceful loser i am.

everything is too late.

who really understands me
i can sae
~~no one~~ does.

tired people
let me be emotionless

happy two months

2005-09-24T15:07:00.000-07:00

CHEER UP CINDY! F4!!! xD

23 september

HAPPY 2 MONTHS my dear!

spent our dae at sentose musical fountains with lotsa people!
pictures uploaded next time
the musical fountain performance was 'WOW!' xD

thanx everyone who tag at my board
or rather those who cares for me no matter how youu are related to me (:
i can sae nothing or duno wad to sae except 'thank you'
hen gan ji ni men dui wo de guan xin
those words i wanna sae to youu all
is deep inside my heart
please felt it
i wan to let youu all noe how i feel towards youu all
i cant express myself
but
do feel it (:

`*do a deer a female dear-

din bother? ncos? hais. .

2005-09-19T19:33:00.000-07:00

wun be blogging until after exams i guess
will be busy studying
but normally i said i wanna study
end up nothing is learnt
or rather done
that's it
gonecase.

arrggghhhh~
mixed mixed super mixed feelings
confused
puzzled
angry
sad
disappointed
bitch
slut
trying to escape from reality
which i noe i cant
guilty
bad
xinku
lastly. .
F E A R .

so many troubles
so many feelings
can i just dun have feelings?
im sick
very sick
sick of everything
deep down inside is so xinku
yet everydae i have to put on a smile
which is simply. .
f a k e
i want to scream out my lungs!
FCUK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

todae
supposed to have a 5 minute meeting
about the air room key
andd can youu please tell me how many turn up?
oh well
people just dun bother about it youu see
came into the room
UNsurprisingly there's only jocelyn andd meiyan
wow~~~
*claps*
im just so sarcastic can
amkss teachers are like that nowadaes too
you qi shi bi you qi sheng (:
so i have to be sarcastic
which i loved to be
especially when im in extremely bad mood
shorriex about it
if youu cant read on
then please click on the 'links'
andd shoo to the other blogs (:
crazy~
crAzY~~
CRAZY~~~

lalallas~

sometimes
some things. .
just cant sae it out
have to keep inside that wounded heart
andd who is supposed to help me sew it back?
i think there's only one person
i have to overcome that person
that person is a 'her'
which is. .
me. .
myself. .
but. .
i just refused to. .
fear to. .

i dun wish to be a problematic girlfrend
thanx for alwaes been there for me dear
i will try to change
for the sake of yours
for i dun wan people to sae youu have a problematic girlfrend

andd of cos for the sake of my frends too
noe youu all will be worried

but. .

i just need. .

t i m e.

that's all.

but it's not enough
for now
for the exams are coming
as near as it seems to be tomorrow

d ea d end.

my perseverance is no longer there.
too tired to persevere

let me just. .

co l la ps e*

retain?
a good question for me to ponder before and after my EOY.
bless me.

`*i have a wonderful dear-

keep quiet

2005-09-17T14:18:00.000-07:00

din blog for very long
din intend to blog todae actually
i never blog for very long
becos. .
lazy?
din bother to?
nothing to blog?
no mood?
no idea. .

im back
back to the yi jun who dun like to talk
keeep quiet
shhhhh. .

so sick of ~~copying homework~~
andd end of year is just how many daes away?
20+?
i dun dare to noe the exact daes
the fear inside me
the fear that i wun be able to promote to sec4
why i just si xing bu gai
why must i alwaes dun study
why must i alwaes dun have the mood to study
why cant i just be concentratedd
hated myself~
~~study aint for me~~

im only confident of passing chinese
others?
gonecase.

S I CK*

SSS CCR EEEEAAAAAA M SS!*

lalas~ swimming with dear tml!

2005-09-11T02:47:00.000-07:00

hais~
todae whole dae the food nv digest hao hao
have a hard time todae~
until now
2+ am in the morning
my lunch andd dinner haven digest yet
how to sleep like that. .
damn tired now. .

eniwae!
gonna go 'swimming' with him tml!
wahahhahas~
looking forward to it
go there play water nia
cos i duno how to swim
same goes for him (:
something special to look forward to
cos typical couples like alwaes go shop + movie
waste money andd so sian
same old thing de
so tml we gna go swimming pool!
pei me go cut hair also!
hahhahahas~
gna spend more time with him now
before we chiong our studies (:

gna go sleep soon i guess
but im still feel so bloated!
oh yes!
i lost 1kg when im back from mount ophir
hahahhas~
so im gna maintain or less
tml going down for a run before meeting him
hehehhes~

`*youu are my energy-

thursdae,one dae after ophir,dinner with dear

2005-09-08T23:13:00.000-07:00

BOO!
PEOPLE!
IM BACK!
FROM MOUNT OPHIR!
MOUNT OPHIR SO RAWKS!

hahahhas~
had maths remedial in the morning
but i overslept
sp late for remedial for 1/2 hour
hehhees~
maths lesson darn fun
though i was very tired
but becos of miss ng
im determined to listen
so i've learn something todae!
the 2 hours was meaningful! xD
but alvin wasnt happy
dao me andd angelia
i damn sad
wad happen to youu alvin yew!
will alwaes be there if youu need someone
like how i need youu when im sad last time (:

went home andd took a nap until 5+ pm
woke up
bathe
6+pm went out to have dinner with jiyong,ghim yang andd ying hui
went kfc (:
never go kallang to support my dear sitting partner JACKIE TAN for his tennis competition just now
SO SHORRIEX!
WE RAWKS THE WORLD KEAS! \m/
reached home just now at 9+ pm
damn tired now

seriously
very lazy to blog about mount ophir
it's gna be a very very very long post
i shall blog either tml or dae/s after okays!
gna sleep le. .
c yAz!~

`*so SO in love with youu as daes went by; so happy to hear your heartbeat once again-

mixed feelings before booking in for mount ophir

2005-09-03T14:50:00.000-07:00

having mixed feelings now
er. .
damn sad
andd. .
scared cum excited?
more or scared i think
but surely more of sad
very very sad
i started to miss everyone now
hais
i miss my frends
i miss darling viven
i miss angelia
i miss skool daes =x
i miss youu*
arrggghhhh~

my haversack is almost done (:
waiting for his phonecall now
i miss him
badly =x

please tell me time is gna pass very fast
andd i will be able to come back home fast
wad im looking forward to is the last dae of the trip
can go and shop all i want
second time i have lots of money to spent like nobodys' business
first time regret not buying anything when i went australia with my primary skool
dad gave me $400+ to spend there
end up coming back with $300+ (-___-")
shld have spent all
now i have learnt my lesson
so i shall cum back with $0
LOL!
but malaysia not much to shop also
HAIS~
biggest regret not spending the money in australia

currently have nothing to do
so boring
I WANT TO GO FOR THE MASS WALK!
omg~
first time so deprive of mass walk. .
so sianx. .

going off to meet others 6.45pm at the bus-stop near skool side gate (:
jackie will make my dae
wahahahhas~
shall forced him to sae lame jokes to entertain me
he's damn R O C K S.
a GREAT sitting partner cum frend!
YEAY~
it's good that he went
if not
maybe i wun be so entertained =x
LOL!

miss me people
hahahahas~

`*I MISS YOU LOTS-

teachers' dae cum be yourself dae

2005-09-01T17:49:00.000-07:00

hell0x everyone!
miss my post?
LOL!
maybe this will be the last post before i return back from my trip to mount ophir (:
will be busy packing my bag tml andd saturdae
so. .
yupps! x))

yesterdae was s0-so bahs
taking pictures andd all that
too bad my kor brought the digital camera to tek0ng
kind of sad lahs~
no camera. .
so people!
please please send the pictures to me k!
i will be more than happy to receive it (:
was wandering around while the performances were on
only watched the last part
slacked around in 3/3 after the performances

PICTURES!
almost all are dao pictures,hahahahas~

DAO me no.1

DAO me nO.2

DAO jiyong andd me nO.1,he looks real damn dao in this pictures,wahahhaas~

DAO jiyong andd me nO.2! nicer*

DAO amkss ncc air USM andd ASM! me andd ben. .

HAPPY amkss ncc air USM andd ASM! xD

JACKIE TAN SEE KIAT andd me! my sitting partner,he's so DARN RAWKS! xD

sofiah andd me! YEAY~

lastly. .
presented. .

me with black visor

COMPETING. .

jiyong with the white visor! LOL!

pictures mostly were from my handphone
so people
please send me the pictures! xD
shorriex for the trouble...

later rushed down to jing shan primary skool with mas; jocelyn and jason
met samuel on the bus (:
damn fucked up
new principal
new discipline master
everything new
ass-hole~
reached there around 11pm andd they sae 2pm then can go in
wtf lohs~
andd outside skool
there's A LOT of people waiting lohs
later got pupils asked us go in
we thought wad~
then the security guards tell us we can ONLY go in after 2pm
PROVIDED wearing skool uniform
i damn bu shuang at first liaos
after he said that
i straight away tok back him
sae how about poly students blah blah
sae until the principal cum kaopei to me
then i also kao pei her lahs
then suck lohs
i diao her straight away
she saes. .
'we are hving a school function now, it will end at 1pm,blah blah blah...the teachers will have their lunch until 2pm,so if youu wan to come back,come back at 2pm...andd youu are required to wear your skool uniform...blah blah~ there's no need to pick a quarrel out of this.'
so she said the last sentence looking at me
or rather STARING at me
so no choice lahs hoh
so. .
i diao her back (:
andd she asked, 'understand?' while staring at me
i kept quiet for awhile while staring at her
andd said a solid & firm 'yes'
andd she asked again
'is there anymore questions?'
so i said 'no'
andd i diao her once more andd turn away
she is damn xl lohs
(opps,become naughty liaos,too vulgar,LOL! but i only treat BAD people with this kinda attitude,key workd = BAD,wahahhaas~)
everyone was like damn bu shuang her also lohs
so we went out again
staying outside for very long
jocelyn andd i decided go arcade find jiamin that bunch of people
shorriex to ps rachel they all
off to arcade
almost 3/4 of the arcade was amksians (-___-")
damn shuang~
hahahahs~
later went japanese cuisine with jiyong and dewei
not my taste lahs
eat le make me nauseous
hahahas~
but the sushi damn rawks x))
wasnt feeling well after i had the cold noodles andd stuffs
hahahas~
went back arcade find jocelyn andd off we went to jsps again
whole lot of people waiting outside
near 100 i guess (:
andd the skool people damn sucks now lohs
damn niao lehs
one minute to 2pm nia
they still sae NO to opening the gate
ass them lahs~
eniwae
3/4 or almost all went to find mr swarna, my form teacher
he's too nice youu see
everyone miss him
no matter is which year de students
2000,2002,2003 or 2004
my year there are 21 people went back!
hehehehs~
united 6/1`o2!
YEAY~

intended to go staff room find mdm lum,our chinese teacher
cos initially cant find her in the canteen
but hold back by the damn security guard
he said. .
'all teachers in the canteen le mahs
bu shi meh (not meh)
ni men bu zhi dao meh (youu all duno mehs) '
andd he kept saeing & saeing
sf jiu not happy also liaos
so she said when she turn back andd walked away. .
'ok lohs,qu canteen jiu qu canteen lohs'
wahahhahas~
purposly let the security hear one
damn nice andd cool man!
wahahhas~
hais
kind of sad though
a very nice primary skool become like that
but i still love my people! xD
took a group photo!

6/1 2o02! LOVE YOU ALL LOTS!

then a lot people wearing home clothes mahs
the security guards was like so kp
go around kp people sae canot come in wadever shit
nobody wans to care lahs dhey
come on
it's TEACHERS' DAE okays!
i see other batch de people also damn bu shuang with him when he wan to chase them out lohs
wtf can~
stayed in skool until 4 pm
people were playing hockey andd captains ball with mr swarna
all stayed back students were formally from his klaz
around 50+ people there
MR SWARNA just rawks!
canot blame right
wahahahahas~
he was like saeing. .
pricipal or whoever is gna tok to him about yesterdae
something like. .
'mr swarna,how can youu let your students stay until 4pm,stay until so late? blah blah blah'
feel kind of sad andd disappointed
sad becos he had to be told off by someone who has more authorities for STUPID reasons
hais~
left for central mac with my frends later
until 5+ p.m
kept quiet all the wae
hahahhas~
realized im darn lazy to open my mouth andd tok already
i love to keep quiet andd think of lots andd lots of stuffs instead (:
andd i dun feel bored at all
omg
inhuman~ =x

dun feel like going home
so. .
went northpoint
shop there for awhile while waiting for yuzhe they all to go northpoint from safra
cos i duno how to go safra
wait wait wait. .
until received a msg from him
hahahhas`
coincidentally yuzhe called me that they've reached
shorriex to ps youu all
so off i went to j8 to look for him (:
was 6 plus then~
hmmmmms
reached home at 9+ pm

wo men de guu shii <3

tiring yet happy dae (:

angelia
cheer up okays!
dun think too much lahs~
must think positive yea?
alvin andd i will be there for youu (:

`*im locked-

i wonder...

2005-08-28T18:43:00.000-07:00

sometimes i just wonder. .
do i born into this world for something?
or. .
n o t h i n g ?

sometimes i just think a lot
a lot of stupid questions
but found no answers to them
of cos there's no answer
i've already said it
the questions ARE stupid & senseless
is there a word in this world called senseless?
ohhh forget it~

wad the hell am i thinking right now?
i cant think. .
my brain aint working
im confused
mind went blank
why?
n o i d e a.

oh well
i duno wtf i have typed just now
does it make any sense?
i dun even noe why i've typed that

eniwae.

todae
spent an indeed 'FRUITFUL' dae at home
staring at the history book whole dae
wad i've learnt?
ohhh
there's this person in historical events called Hitler
t ha ts IT.
F U L L S T O P.

aint i brilliant?
i can stare at the book for so long
read it for so long
read it with the music on
or. .
read it withOUT the music on
read it on the bed
read it on the table
read it with wadever method i can think of
B U T. .

N O T H I N G is absorbed
can youu tell me how great is that hurhs?

sometimes i just wonder. .
am i good enough for that particular job?
ohhh wadever~

my results is NO good AT ALL.
i wan to buck up
but.
wad makes me everytime dun wan to study is. .
why must every chapter be ~~LINKED~~ to the previous chapter?!
this is the MOST tiring.
i wan to study for. .
let's sae chapter 9
but i have to noe about chapter 8 before i can learn chapter 9
this is the MAIN thiing which makes me dun wan to study all this while
hais~
i cant make it
im afraid to retain
a NCC(air) USM being retained
can youu imagine how great is that hurhs?
three alphabets. .
'W O W'
(:

sometimes i just wonder. .
if i can vanish into thin air
so that i can dun bother about studies
i really noe that i cant make it for my studies
i really want to bang the wall andd die
i noe it sounds silly
andd extremely stupid
but i just cant help it
im really afraid. .
i cant make it for my studies
wad's the point when i alwaes ask how how how?
wad's the point if i start to catch up now?
wad's the point if i try my best andd study but end up having marks which is less than the fucking digit 5?
WHAT'S THE POINT?
andd wad's the point of asking wad's the point now?
it's. .
POINTLESS.
so i shall stop asking.
S T O P.

be prepared to get marks which is less than 5 for my history on mondae andd the quiz for physics on tuesdae
bless me
ohhh
dunid to bless me
im dead eniwae (:

`*i wonder-

shui bu gou

2005-08-27T19:43:00.000-07:00

arrggghhhh~
slept around 2.30a.m yesterdae
woke up at 2.30 p.m todae
so i slept for 12 hours!
nnono
still must include yesterdae from 8+ to 11+ de hours
12 + 3 = 15 hours!
but i dun seem to be very energetic
i still wan to sleep
so just now after lunch
4+ sleep until just now 6+
andd here i am blogging
still feeling sleepy
eyes wanna close
it seems that i will still be very sleepy no matter how long i slept
hais~
intend to study my history todae
but my sleep took up all my study time
i feel like sleeping right now
yAwnnnnnns*

so wad to blog about recently?
hmmmmmms~
ncc air is not going very well
hope it will be better the next training
take this chance to apologize to all the NCOs
shorriex that the stuffs alwaes very last minute
andd youu all did well for reacting fast (:
shorriex for sometimes being sarcastic andd giving youu stress about how your cadets behave
i will change for that sarcasism in toking to youu all
but of cos not to the cadets =x
wahahahhahas~
but for the stress part
no choice
if not
youu all wun be having the tui dong li to do stuffs
hope youu all understand benedict andd i de job
andd the same time we will understand youu all too (:
dun let our efforts & sufferings in the 2 years plus goes down the drain okays!
charlie`o5 all the wae!~

i realise that i have a lot to buy recently
shoes; bags; shades; jay chou's books; jay chou's CDs
andd i wna have a new haircut!
LOL!
but where the money will come from? (-___-")
okays
nvm
mum will pei me to go andd buy skool bag; haircut & shoes!
it's damn freaking nice i tell youu!
baby purple converse!
here i come!
wahahahhahas~

dun really feel like going mount ophir
thinking of bathing in the river
drink river water
omg~
can let me die man
sleeping with all the insects
arrggghhhh~

my everydae life is getting more andd MORE bored!
can i have some colours instead of black andd white?
hmmmmms~
but at least i have all the colours when im with youu
hahahahas~

my mind seems to be thinking ncc andd studies everywhere i go
like. .
ncc,
wad's not done?
how's the cadets?
how to improve?
anything i left out?
this andd thats lohs. .
studies,
how to concentrate?
how to apply?
how to face the teachers?
how to face mrs rama next week when i failed my test despite i DID try my best andd study for it?
how about my maths?
how about my coming exams?
how hOw HOW?
hais~
that's why every nite
i cant sleep peacefully
alwaes or often frown to sleep
. . .

`*my rainbow life with your presence-

sianx,yawn,ophir training

2005-08-26T01:49:00.000-07:00

yAwnnnnnn*
ophir training todae
okays~
cum back home kinda pek cek
have to do the bottle again
hmmmmmms
then later settle some ncc stuffs
9.30 p.m go bathe~
10 pm sitting on the chair
reading first paragraph of bio
BOOM*
feel aslp (-_____-")
until just now
hais~
everything is not done yet
haven revise
haven make my uniform
have do my tml's trng ncos management
gna stay up todae again
arrggghhhhh~
but everytime benedict also like me never sleep
so can pei wo online chat
LOL~
ncc air is being lead by two pandas =x
okok
gtg study. .

oh yes
wednesdae r a w k s.
bus rides r a w k s s.

`*my eyes sucks; no jing shen-

one month? disappointing...but i still love youu,my dear...

2005-08-24T01:03:00.000-07:00

nothing much to post
gna stay up andd study my bio
starting from now. .
1.03 a.m

HAPPY ONE MONTH ; happy birthdae to selena and jia hui

2005-08-23T00:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAE SELENA & JIA HUI!

and of cos. .

HAPPY ONE MONTH TO US! xD

`*youu melts my heart.<3

dreamt of studies; books

2005-08-21T10:52:00.000-07:00

morning everyone!
LOL!
woke up early to study (:
just here to have a quick blog

morning breeze was great
hahhaahs~
damn cooling~

eniwae
have been daes that i dreamt of books andd studies
dream until i sianx =x
yesterdae i dreamt of mrs rama
biology?
hais~
two daes ago i dreamt that next week there are 2 bilogy test
on tuesdae andd wednesdae
different topics
arrggghhhh
can i just have other dreams except studies? (-___-")
andd noe wad?
this morning 6a.m
i auto woke up
looked at the clock
i panic!
IM LATE!
cos i tot todae is mondae
but i sit on the bed awhile
'ehs...todae isnt it sundae?'
i confirmed with my sis then go back to sleep (-___-")
hais~
duno wad's wrong with me
hahahhahas~
everything is about studies andd books
sianx 1/2~

gna go study my maths le
ciaoos~

`*thinking of youu makes me smile-

study study study

2005-08-20T22:41:00.000-07:00

study study study!
well
this is wad im gna do-
during this weekend. .
during the next whole week. .
i have no choice
cos next week have so so many test

mondae - e.maths trigonometry
wednesdae - biology
fridae - a.maths

todae woke up at noon
spent my whole afternoon studying bio
but in between a 2 hours sleep
hahahhas~
kind of tired
then continue studying until dinner
but cant absorb much into my mind
duno why~
after having pizza hut!
then jiu cum online! xD
lalallalas~
later gna study again for bio
tml then spend whole dae studying&doing e-maths!
im adapting. .

time-table for next week?

mondae go out tp buy prezzies; at nite study biology
tuesdae! gna be god damn happy,afternoon im outside; tuesdae nite study bio + maths
wednesdae study maths whole dae
thursdae afternn mt ophir training at HQ; at nite duno can tahan andd study anots
fridae! im free from test for the week after a-maths test! like duh~ fridae is the last dae~
saturdae&sundae piah history~ mondae having test andd i need a lot of time for memorizing cos my memory sux like hell; a minute later i can forgot wad ppl tell me or wad i've studied,hais~

hais~
tired lahs~
whole week only study study study
only think about studies andd ncc
hmmmmms
just wna go out andd relax lehs
im adapting to my study life

fridae. .
thanx rachel andd cindy x))

i seem to have forgotten all those wad ppl said to me
really
but it's remembered in my heart
i may not be able to remember
but duno why
deep down inside
i noe the purpose of why youu all saying all those things
the impact is inside me
but still
apologize for forgotting =x
hais~
but it din go out of my ears okays
it enters into my heart (:
my brain isnt working
memory sux
LOL!

btw!
i really really wan to thanx ALL MY FRIENDS!
andd mr tong. .
shorriex to make youu all worry all this while
thanx for wad youu all have told me andd shower me with all the care andd concern
im darn gan dong
really. .
im now trying to adapt to the 'study life'
im trying hard to study
trying hard to understand
trying hard not to let down my mum
not to let down my frends
not to let down my ncc seniors/frends
last but not least!
not to let that stupid ~~TAN CHEE SIONG~~ looked down on UGs!
bloody sucker youu~

gna have my fruits andd study le!

`*60 hours more; uuoyevoli

the maid

2005-08-18T20:19:00.000-07:00

oh yes!
i miss out something important!
EVERYONE!
PLEASE GO AND WATCH 'The Maid'!
hahahhas~
cos my brother is inside! =x
LOL!
he's under the production team
but he also participated in the filming for a few seconds?
hahhahas~
but look out for him okays!
andd hors!
there's one scene whereby there's a bin shaking!
andd when youu saw that!
please remember that it's my brother who's inside shaking the bin!
wahahahhahhaas!
darn fun!
andd the ritual inside the movie is film outside my doorstep! xD

pictures for 'The Maid'!

my korkor andd his frend de uniform for the filming! he looks so damn young,LOL!

my korkor with the female actress in 'The Maid'!

another picture of them! she is so damn chio lohs! andd kor looks so darn paiseh! xD

korkor looks like this now during his NS time!

thursdae; VE

2005-08-18T19:54:00.000-07:00

[7.54 p.m]

todae ahs~
erMmmms. .
average lohs
but lessons kinda sianx~
BAND 5 IS MISSING MISS NG KAE PENG DARN LOTS!
omg~
seriously missing her man
mdm teng darn dots de lohs!
VE lessons darn rocks
seems like we are the only klaz doing VE
other klaz alwaes are free periods
this semester's topic is. .
'sense andd sexuality'
which will catch our teenagers' attention of course
so we tend to be darn attentive x))
One In A Million!
omg
this song is darn nice lohs!
sang by Bosson! (:

after skool
makan then jiu hurry to HQ amoy quee
for the mount ophir training
with the other 8 people (:
actually i dun feel like going mt ophir =x
but well
if i dun go
i wun have any chances going anywhere le
cos im not going for OBS
hais~
eniwae
the training is kinda slack =x
just got 6 stations
push-ups andd all those lohs
but next training think is much tougher de
no comments*

next week have a lot of test
as usual~
have E-maths; biology; A-maths
hais~
duno wad to sae except for hais~
nothing much to sae
nothing to comment about
just sick of these kinda things

PICTURES!*

my neighbour andd me! he's damn cute lohs! xD

the 77th street plastic bag! it's so darn cool!

hehehhes!* <3

`*5 more daes-

j8 with lester,hunt for the one-month present

2005-08-17T22:59:00.000-07:00

lallas~
duno why damn happy todae when i went to skool todae
I MISS ALL MY FRENDS!
okays
it may sounds stupid
but im absent for one dae andd i really miss them like crazy! xD
got back my biology test
the klaz kinda reprimanded by mrs rama
cos we have 15 failures
andd the first time mrs rama came across this kind of results
mine is 6/25
well
expected to fail eniwae
physics test after skool!
first time do physics test so happy!
cos i did study for it
but too gan jiong
at first jiu blank out liaos (-____-")
but think can mian qiang pass bahs
i also duno
bio consultation later
no time for my lunch
sianx~
dun really like consultations
so sianx...

stayed skool until 6p.m
off i went to J8 with retsel eehc!
YEAY~
go andd hunt presents! xD
long time never shop
damn excited
hahahahs~
shorriex angelia to lost your ear studs (-__-")
supposed to get the backing or wadever it is called for youu
but get le
then later i lost the whole packet (-___-")
how clumsy can i get lohs~
i bought 3 pairs of ear studs
same alphabet but different colours
WEEETS!~
had a hard time choosing the present!
MUST sae a BIG 'THANK YOU' to RETSEL EEHC!
for accompanying me; takopachi; helped me take things; helped me try clothes!
wahahahhas!
andd everything okays!
DA HAO REN~ xD
i owe youu a meal!
andd i meant it okays! x))

actually wan post some pictures
but the photobucket aint working
next time then! x))

tml having mt ophir training at HQ tml
hais~
sianx 1/2~

`*seeing youu has become my hobby-

pon skool =x

2005-08-17T01:02:00.000-07:00

[1.02 a.m]

oh well
for the first time
which is also the last time
i pon skool todae =x
surprsing hurhs?
i myself dun believe it too
my report book will appear one less number under the attendance!
hais~
why cant i be really sick?
but everything is really unexpected lahs
was feeling damn damn tired yesterdae when i was trying to study my physics
(supposed to have 2 test todae; physics andd SS,but eniwae SS test was cancelled)
i din sleep at all on sundae nite
was studying my chinese
cum to skool damn pek cek
yesterdae nite
tried to absorb
but everything was just too late
im just suck at time management can
was msging siao kia(zl)
he noes im darn tired inside out
he suggest that i take a break from skool
was having a hard time deciding
but tried to study
really damn tired
so decided not to go skool todae
sleep all i want
rest all i want
wad i need is just rest
andd one dae break from everything
but feeling damn weird this morning
found myself on my bed when im supposed to be in skool
have a lot of feelings todae
weird; sad; relax; guilty; troubled; unhappy; scared
surprisingly found no 'happy' inside
well
i myself also duno why. .
n u m b.
mum din ask me anything todae
btw i msg her yesterdae nite when she's aslp to sae i dun wan go skool cos im feeling very tired
guess she noes that i myself noe wad im doing bahs
but think she kinda disappointed in me
studied physics since i woke up todae
understand more
but unit 7.5 onwards jiu blur liaos
sianx 1/2
so here i am online blogging (:
gna continue study later

damn troubled or rather sianx recently
chu kou kai kou dou shi 'study'
but end up not doing great
not even a pass
hais~
i aint happy at all

couldnt sleep
im sleepy
im tired
i wan to sleep
but at the same time i cant sleep
so contradicting hurhs
but. .
i noe i wun be sleeping well
im having those feelings that i have a lot of things undone
but i duno wad it is
hais~
let me off can
fang guo wo lahs~

siaokia
dun worry (:

same goes for my caring frends around me! xD

i miss angelia; alvin andd him! xD

`*countdown 6 daes-

fcuk of books

2005-08-14T22:06:00.000-07:00

let me s l e e p

sucky me with a sucky attitude

once again. .

FCUK OFF BOOKS!

im wrong? am i?

2005-08-13T12:18:00.000-07:00

maybe or perhaps im wrong
shorriex
i've nothing more to sae
just wan to tell everyone
'do wad youu think is right, dun do wad youu think is wrong'
quoted from felix ong (:

im hecking everything. .
but i cant . .
perseverance i must`

going out soon
just want to relax
break away from E V E R Y T H I N G !

`*i was so happy T H E N-

12 august training,NCOs

2005-08-12T22:47:00.000-07:00

very physically andd emotionally tired
broke down countless times todae
even during lessons
hais~
is troubled the same as stressed?
i felt no stress?
i felt MORE troubled
maybe
perhaps
it's the same
thanx a lot to shiuan shiuan; cheryl; wei ling !
hahhahas~
still have small; medium; big shoulder de worghs
how lame can shiuan shiuan be too?
LOL!
but thanx eniwae yea
dang ran not forgetting youu again
never failed to make me smile or laugh (:
but really shorriex that recently have to make youu worry for me
i will take care alright

friends out there
dun worry about me okays
i will be fine
andd dun be too scared to approach me when see me very dao
i just wish to be a sadist
im trying to be . .

NCOs
i duno wad to sae about youu all
think think think
wad izuan andd ka tat said todae is all i wan to tell youu all
wad we can do is to tell; scold; pump youu
but youu tell me
does it help?
if yes
im glad (:
if not
wad youu all wan us to do then?
we CANT do anything actually
it is ALL up to youu all to decide
youu all wan to be arrogant
fine
i cant do anything
youu wan to heck wad izuan & others told us
fine too
i also cant do anything
but hey
does it help the unit anots?
can youu all like spare a thought for the unit?
andd dun alwaes put yourself before the unit/cadets can?
we ARE the current leaders
our job is lead the cadets
our job is to bring the unit to greater heights
why why?
youu tell me why?
where the fuck is the united charlie?
youu tell me lahs
there's times i really wan to scream andd yell at youu all
but i din
cos i cant
i cant bear to scold youu all
i wan to see if youu all will auto change if i never sae anything anots
i trust youu all
i put all my hopes on youu all
but everyone; everything; disappoints me
youu noe im not only feeling angry?
im feeling MORE sad than angry
im so sad that our unity is gone youu noe
youu all noe that anots?
REFLECT can!
WAKE UP YOR BLOODY IDEAS!
i seriously cant do anything
everything it's inside youu
i duno wad youu all are thinking
i duno wad youu all wan
i dun expect much from youu all
do youu noe youu all seem so unfamiliar to me?
do youu noe youu all are like strangers to me?
i just wan the OLD charlie back
those daes. .
when we cried together
doing everything together
have youu all CLEAN forgotten about that?!
can youu all please tell me?
PLEASE~
for once
i beg youu
im really helpless towards youu all
wad youu all have changed into
disappointed me; benedict; sirs; mdms; COs
wad's more do youu wan?
my job as an USM is supposed to lead everyone to the TOP
my job is to get everything nicely done
BUT!
my job is also youu all as NCOs de job
each andd everyone is a leader
post is NOTHING
everyone is capable to do something
we have our own strength
andd why dun you all show out all your capabilities?
but i have to sae
if this is going to continue
dun blame me for being harsh
im serious
i wun care about fame or wadsoever
NCC is NCC
there's alwaes a clear line
this is wad myself have learnt todae
if youu all dun change
shorriex for me being harsh to youu all
lastly
i must sae the training plan is kinda rush
my apologies. .
benedict andd i will try to make everything nicely done
so youu all will have a better idea wad's going on
anything can alwaes cum find us okays
last decision is still yours...

we are still O N E`

`*set-backs is for us to fall andd learn how to stand up-

chat with lester

2005-08-12T00:55:00.000-07:00

had a long chat with lester just now
the feeling is 'wow'
hahhahhas~
as in like found someone same as me
ncc ncc ncc ncc ncc
studies go away~
we crap so much
my brain isnt working anymore
just wish to sleep since 10p.m just now
but i cant sleep in peace
i hate it
i have to think about everything
ncc training
studies
tml chinese test
mrs rama
wad she gna sae. .
hais~

`*HECK-

better? am i? hmmmms...change of seat!

2005-08-11T23:16:00.000-07:00

back to blog!
change of seat todae!
cant deny that im god darn happy
everyone can predict that i will be flying in the sky when ms zaiton saes im gna change seat!
whahahahs!
my new partner is JACKIE TAN!
has no grudges sitting with him (:
he's a nice guy
andd SUPER humorous lahs~
can make me laugh non-stop
hahahhahas~

after skool stayed back
discussed about the training plan with benedict awhile
then my mood changed
suddenly think of so many things after jonathan's talk when i came back from the toilet
cant control anymore so. .
eniwae
thanx a lot of people~
just not in the mood yea
had a good cry just now
hahahahs~
but not really good lahs~
never cry all out
long time never cry le =x
dumb-ass
LOL!
well
feeling much better eniwae
duno how am i going to face mrs rama tml
hais~
im scared actually. .
i have so many fears inside me
i just blocked everyone from my inner me
i may seem happy
but im not . .
pardon me~

tml gna have training
benedict is not coming
bless me~
let me zi sheng zi mie suan le~

wna thanx 2 very important people-

felix ong andd alvin yew!
youu noe why,i dunid to spell out everything... (:

of cos not forgetting youu. . <3

`*youu alwaes make my dae dear-

fuck off B O O K S!

2005-08-10T23:05:00.000-07:00

damn fucked up
just realized physics test is next week
not tml
waste my fcuking time
waste my fcuking worries
waste my fcuking afternoon
waste my fcuking dae
andd wad?
screwed up my daes totally!
cant hand in my training plan on time
din study for my a-maths test on fridae when i can
im god darn fcuking tired
i wanna quit skool
i wanna stay AWAY from those fcuking books
i told youu!
i REFUSED to study!
i DUN WAN to study!
studies AINT for me!
i HATE studies!
STUDIES S U C K S!
okays!
im a LOSER!
I NOE THAT!
FUCK OFF!

okays
shall stop all my venting
stop all vulgarities
if he sees this mess
my head sure kena chop off by him
andd he will be darn angry
hahahahhas~
just let me be wild sometimes
xing hao you ni

`*when im very unhappy, i will feel consoled when i think of youu-

[[__w0 de guu shii______*