im wad i am
welcome to my lala land.
i want to live in a world of myself.
no disturbance
no nothing.
just me.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
3:07 PM
CHEER UP CINDY! F4!!! xD
23 september
spent our dae at sentose musical fountains with lotsa people!
pictures uploaded next time
the musical fountain performance was 'WOW!' xD
thanx everyone who tag at my board
or rather those who cares for me no matter how youu are related to me (:
i can sae nothing or duno wad to sae except 'thank you'
hen gan ji ni men dui wo de guan xin
those words i wanna sae to youu all
is deep inside my heart
please felt it
i wan to let youu all noe how i feel towards youu all
i cant express myself
but
do feel it (:
`*do a deer a female dear-
Monday, September 19, 2005
7:33 PM
wun be blogging until after exams i guess
will be busy studying
but normally i said i wanna study
end up nothing is learnt
or rather done
that's it
gonecase.
arrggghhhh~
mixed mixed super mixed feelings
confused
puzzled
angry
sad
disappointed
bitch
slut
trying to escape from reality
which i noe i cant
guilty
bad
xinku
lastly. .
F E A R .
so many troubles
so many feelings
can i just dun have feelings?
im sick
very sick
sick of everything
deep down inside is so xinku
yet everydae i have to put on a smile
which is simply. .
f a k e
i want to scream out my lungs!
FCUK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
todae
supposed to have a 5 minute meeting
about the air room key
andd can youu please tell me how many turn up?
oh well
people just dun bother about it youu see
came into the room
UNsurprisingly there's only jocelyn andd meiyan
wow~~~
*claps*
im just so sarcastic can
amkss teachers are like that nowadaes too
you qi shi bi you qi sheng (:
so i have to be sarcastic
which i loved to be
especially when im in extremely bad mood
shorriex about it
if youu cant read on
then please click on the 'links'
andd shoo to the other blogs (:
crazy~
crAzY~~
CRAZY~~~
lalallas~
sometimes
some things. .
just cant sae it out
have to keep inside that wounded heart
andd who is supposed to help me sew it back?
i think there's only one person
i have to overcome that person
that person is a 'her'
which is. .
me. .
myself. .
but. .
i just refused to. .
fear to. .
i dun wish to be a problematic girlfrend
thanx for alwaes been there for me dear
i will try to change
for the sake of yours
for i dun wan people to sae youu have a problematic girlfrend
andd of cos for the sake of my frends too
noe youu all will be worried
but. .
i just need. .
t i m e.
that's all.
but it's not enough
for now
for the exams are coming
as near as it seems to be tomorrow
d ea d end.
my perseverance is no longer there.
too tired to persevere
let me just. .
co l la ps e*
retain?
a good question for me to ponder before and after my EOY.
bless me.
`*i have a wonderful dear-
Saturday, September 17, 2005
2:18 PM
din blog for very long
din intend to blog todae actually
i never blog for very long
becos. .
lazy?
din bother to?
nothing to blog?
no mood?
no idea. .
im back
back to the yi jun who dun like to talk
keeep quiet
shhhhh. .
so sick of copying homework
andd end of year is just how many daes away?
20+?
i dun dare to noe the exact daes
the fear inside me
the fear that i wun be able to promote to sec4
why i just si xing bu gai
why must i alwaes dun study
why must i alwaes dun have the mood to study
why cant i just be concentratedd
hated myself~
study aint for me
im only confident of passing chinese
others?
gonecase.
S I CK*
SSS CCR EEEEAAAAAA M SS!*
Sunday, September 11, 2005
2:47 AM
hais~
todae whole dae the food nv digest hao hao
have a hard time todae~
until now
2+ am in the morning
my lunch andd dinner haven digest yet
how to sleep like that. .
damn tired now. .
eniwae!
gonna go 'swimming' with him tml!
wahahhahas~
looking forward to it
go there play water nia
cos i duno how to swim
same goes for him (:
something special to look forward to
cos typical couples like alwaes go shop + movie
waste money andd so sian
same old thing de
so tml we gna go swimming pool!
pei me go cut hair also!
hahhahahas~
gna spend more time with him now
before we chiong our studies (:
gna go sleep soon i guess
but im still feel so bloated!
oh yes!
i lost 1kg when im back from mount ophir
hahahhas~
so im gna maintain or less
tml going down for a run before meeting him
hehehhes~
`*youu are my energy-
Thursday, September 08, 2005
11:13 PM
BOO!
PEOPLE!
IM BACK!
FROM MOUNT OPHIR!
MOUNT OPHIR SO RAWKS!
hahahhas~
had maths remedial in the morning
but i overslept
sp late for remedial for 1/2 hour
hehhees~
maths lesson darn fun
though i was very tired
but becos of miss ng
im determined to listen
so i've learn something todae!
the 2 hours was meaningful! xD
but alvin wasnt happy
dao me andd angelia
i damn sad
wad happen to youu alvin yew!
will alwaes be there if youu need someone
like how i need youu when im sad last time (:
went home andd took a nap until 5+ pm
woke up
bathe
6+pm went out to have dinner with jiyong,ghim yang andd ying hui
went kfc (:
never go kallang to support my dear sitting partner JACKIE TAN for his tennis competition just now
SO SHORRIEX!
WE RAWKS THE WORLD KEAS! \m/
reached home just now at 9+ pm
damn tired now
seriously
very lazy to blog about mount ophir
it's gna be a very very very long post
i shall blog either tml or dae/s after okays!
gna sleep le. .
c yAz!~
`*so SO in love with youu as daes went by; so happy to hear your heartbeat once again-
Saturday, September 03, 2005
2:50 PM
having mixed feelings now
er. .
damn sad
andd. .
scared cum excited?
more or scared i think
but surely more of sad
very very sad
i started to miss everyone now
hais
i miss my frends
i miss darling viven
i miss angelia
i miss skool daes =x
i miss youu*
arrggghhhh~
my haversack is almost done (:
waiting for his phonecall now
i miss him
badly =x
please tell me time is gna pass very fast
andd i will be able to come back home fast
wad im looking forward to is the last dae of the trip
can go and shop all i want
second time i have lots of money to spent like nobodys' business
first time regret not buying anything when i went australia with my primary skool
dad gave me $400+ to spend there
end up coming back with $300+ (-___-")
shld have spent all
now i have learnt my lesson
so i shall cum back with $0
LOL!
but malaysia not much to shop also
HAIS~
biggest regret not spending the money in australia
currently have nothing to do
so boring
I WANT TO GO FOR THE MASS WALK!
omg~
first time so deprive of mass walk. .
so sianx. .
going off to meet others 6.45pm at the bus-stop near skool side gate (:
jackie will make my dae
wahahahhas~
shall forced him to sae lame jokes to entertain me
he's damn R O C K S.
a GREAT sitting partner cum frend!
YEAY~
it's good that he went
if not
maybe i wun be so entertained =x
LOL!
miss me people
hahahahas~
`*I MISS YOU LOTS-
Thursday, September 01, 2005
5:49 PM
hell0x everyone!
miss my post?
LOL!
maybe this will be the last post before i return back from my trip to mount ophir (:
will be busy packing my bag tml andd saturdae
so. .
yupps! x))
yesterdae was s0-so bahs
taking pictures andd all that
too bad my kor brought the digital camera to tek0ng
kind of sad lahs~
no camera. .
so people!
please please send the pictures to me k!
i will be more than happy to receive it (:
was wandering around while the performances were on
only watched the last part
slacked around in 3/3 after the performances
PICTURES!
almost all are dao pictures,hahahahas~
DAO me no.1
DAO me nO.2
DAO jiyong andd me nO.1,he looks real damn dao in this pictures,wahahhaas~
DAO jiyong andd me nO.2! nicer*
DAO amkss ncc air USM andd ASM! me andd ben. .
HAPPY amkss ncc air USM andd ASM! xD
JACKIE TAN SEE KIAT andd me! my sitting partner,he's so DARN RAWKS! xD
sofiah andd me! YEAY~
lastly. .
presented. .
me with black visor
COMPETING. .
jiyong with the white visor! LOL!
pictures mostly were from my handphone
so people
please send me the pictures! xD
shorriex for the trouble...
later rushed down to jing shan primary skool with mas; jocelyn and jason
met samuel on the bus (:
damn fucked up
new principal
new discipline master
everything new
ass-hole~
reached there around 11pm andd they sae 2pm then can go in
wtf lohs~
andd outside skool
there's A LOT of people waiting lohs
later got pupils asked us go in
we thought wad~
then the security guards tell us we can ONLY go in after 2pm
PROVIDED wearing skool uniform
i damn bu shuang at first liaos
after he said that
i straight away tok back him
sae how about poly students blah blah
sae until the principal cum kaopei to me
then i also kao pei her lahs
then suck lohs
i diao her straight away
she saes. .
'we are hving a school function now, it will end at 1pm,blah blah blah...the teachers will have their lunch until 2pm,so if youu wan to come back,come back at 2pm...andd youu are required to wear your skool uniform...blah blah~ there's no need to pick a quarrel out of this.'
so she said the last sentence looking at me
or rather STARING at me
so no choice lahs hoh
so. .
i diao her back (:
andd she asked, 'understand?' while staring at me
i kept quiet for awhile while staring at her
andd said a solid & firm 'yes'
andd she asked again
'is there anymore questions?'
so i said 'no'
andd i diao her once more andd turn away
she is damn xl lohs
(opps,become naughty liaos,too vulgar,LOL! but i only treat BAD people with this kinda attitude,key workd = BAD,wahahhaas~)
everyone was like damn bu shuang her also lohs
so we went out again
staying outside for very long
jocelyn andd i decided go arcade find jiamin that bunch of people
shorriex to ps rachel they all
off to arcade
almost 3/4 of the arcade was amksians (-___-")
damn shuang~
hahahahs~
later went japanese cuisine with jiyong and dewei
not my taste lahs
eat le make me nauseous
hahahas~
but the sushi damn rawks x))
wasnt feeling well after i had the cold noodles andd stuffs
hahahas~
went back arcade find jocelyn andd off we went to jsps again
whole lot of people waiting outside
near 100 i guess (:
andd the skool people damn sucks now lohs
damn niao lehs
one minute to 2pm nia
they still sae NO to opening the gate
ass them lahs~
eniwae
3/4 or almost all went to find mr swarna, my form teacher
he's too nice youu see
everyone miss him
no matter is which year de students
2000,2002,2003 or 2004
my year there are 21 people went back!
hehehehs~
united 6/1`o2!
YEAY~
intended to go staff room find mdm lum,our chinese teacher
cos initially cant find her in the canteen
but hold back by the damn security guard
he said. .
'all teachers in the canteen le mahs
bu shi meh (not meh)
ni men bu zhi dao meh (youu all duno mehs) '
andd he kept saeing & saeing
sf jiu not happy also liaos
so she said when she turn back andd walked away. .
'ok lohs,qu canteen jiu qu canteen lohs'
wahahhahas~
purposly let the security hear one
damn nice andd cool man!
wahahhas~
hais
kind of sad though
a very nice primary skool become like that
but i still love my people! xD
took a group photo!
6/1 2o02! LOVE YOU ALL LOTS!
then a lot people wearing home clothes mahs
the security guards was like so kp
go around kp people sae canot come in wadever shit
nobody wans to care lahs dhey
come on
it's TEACHERS' DAE okays!
i see other batch de people also damn bu shuang with him when he wan to chase them out lohs
wtf can~
stayed in skool until 4 pm
people were playing hockey andd captains ball with mr swarna
all stayed back students were formally from his klaz
around 50+ people there
MR SWARNA just rawks!
canot blame right
wahahahahas~
he was like saeing. .
pricipal or whoever is gna tok to him about yesterdae
something like. .
'mr swarna,how can youu let your students stay until 4pm,stay until so late? blah blah blah'
feel kind of sad andd disappointed
sad becos he had to be told off by someone who has more authorities for STUPID reasons
hais~
left for central mac with my frends later
until 5+ p.m
kept quiet all the wae
hahahhas~
realized im darn lazy to open my mouth andd tok already
i love to keep quiet andd think of lots andd lots of stuffs instead (:
andd i dun feel bored at all
omg
inhuman~ =x
dun feel like going home
so. .
went northpoint
shop there for awhile while waiting for yuzhe they all to go northpoint from safra
cos i duno how to go safra
wait wait wait. .
until received a msg from him
hahahhas`
coincidentally yuzhe called me that they've reached
shorriex to ps youu all
so off i went to j8 to look for him (:
was 6 plus then~
hmmmmms
reached home at 9+ pm
wo men de guu shii <3
tiring yet happy dae (:
angelia
cheer up okays!
dun think too much lahs~
must think positive yea?
alvin andd i will be there for youu (:
`*im locked-
th e g ir l*
16
jsps - amkss
ncc air
13 february 1990
w i sh i n g f or*
bring my parents to overseas with my siblings; a hardworking me; GREAT grades in olvls this year
