im wad i am
welcome to my lala land.
i want to live in a world of myself.
no disturbance
no nothing.
just me.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
6:43 PM
sometimes i just wonder. .
do i born into this world for something?
or. .
n o t h i n g ?
sometimes i just think a lot
a lot of stupid questions
but found no answers to them
of cos there's no answer
i've already said it
the questions ARE stupid & senseless
is there a word in this world called senseless?
ohhh forget it~
wad the hell am i thinking right now?
i cant think. .
my brain aint working
im confused
mind went blank
why?
n o i d e a.
oh well
i duno wtf i have typed just now
does it make any sense?
i dun even noe why i've typed that
eniwae.
todae
spent an indeed 'FRUITFUL' dae at home
staring at the history book whole dae
wad i've learnt?
ohhh
there's this person in historical events called Hitler
t ha ts IT.
F U L L S T O P.
aint i brilliant?
i can stare at the book for so long
read it for so long
read it with the music on
or. .
read it withOUT the music on
read it on the bed
read it on the table
read it with wadever method i can think of
B U T. .
N O T H I N G is absorbed
can youu tell me how great is that hurhs?
sometimes i just wonder. .
am i good enough for that particular job?
ohhh wadever~
my results is NO good AT ALL.
i wan to buck up
but.
wad makes me everytime dun wan to study is. .
why must every chapter be LINKED to the previous chapter?!
this is the MOST tiring.
i wan to study for. .
let's sae chapter 9
but i have to noe about chapter 8 before i can learn chapter 9
this is the MAIN thiing which makes me dun wan to study all this while
hais~
i cant make it
im afraid to retain
a NCC(air) USM being retained
can youu imagine how great is that hurhs?
three alphabets. .
'W O W'
(:
sometimes i just wonder. .
if i can vanish into thin air
so that i can dun bother about studies
i really noe that i cant make it for my studies
i really want to bang the wall andd die
i noe it sounds silly
andd extremely stupid
but i just cant help it
im really afraid. .
i cant make it for my studies
wad's the point when i alwaes ask how how how?
wad's the point if i start to catch up now?
wad's the point if i try my best andd study but end up having marks which is less than the fucking digit 5?
WHAT'S THE POINT?
andd wad's the point of asking wad's the point now?
it's. .
POINTLESS.
so i shall stop asking.
S T O P.
be prepared to get marks which is less than 5 for my history on mondae andd the quiz for physics on tuesdae
bless me
ohhh
dunid to bless me
im dead eniwae (:
`*i wonder-
Saturday, August 27, 2005
7:43 PM
arrggghhhh~
slept around 2.30a.m yesterdae
woke up at 2.30 p.m todae
so i slept for 12 hours!
nnono
still must include yesterdae from 8+ to 11+ de hours
12 + 3 = 15 hours!
but i dun seem to be very energetic
i still wan to sleep
so just now after lunch
4+ sleep until just now 6+
andd here i am blogging
still feeling sleepy
eyes wanna close
it seems that i will still be very sleepy no matter how long i slept
hais~
intend to study my history todae
but my sleep took up all my study time
i feel like sleeping right now
yAwnnnnnns*
so wad to blog about recently?
hmmmmmms~
ncc air is not going very well
hope it will be better the next training
take this chance to apologize to all the NCOs
shorriex that the stuffs alwaes very last minute
andd youu all did well for reacting fast (:
shorriex for sometimes being sarcastic andd giving youu stress about how your cadets behave
i will change for that sarcasism in toking to youu all
but of cos not to the cadets =x
wahahahhahas~
but for the stress part
no choice
if not
youu all wun be having the tui dong li to do stuffs
hope youu all understand benedict andd i de job
andd the same time we will understand youu all too (:
dun let our efforts & sufferings in the 2 years plus goes down the drain okays!
charlie`o5 all the wae!~
i realise that i have a lot to buy recently
shoes; bags; shades; jay chou's books; jay chou's CDs
andd i wna have a new haircut!
LOL!
but where the money will come from? (-___-")
okays
nvm
mum will pei me to go andd buy skool bag; haircut & shoes!
it's damn freaking nice i tell youu!
baby purple converse!
here i come!
wahahahhahas~
dun really feel like going mount ophir
thinking of bathing in the river
drink river water
omg~
can let me die man
sleeping with all the insects
arrggghhhh~
my everydae life is getting more andd MORE bored!
can i have some colours instead of black andd white?
hmmmmms~
but at least i have all the colours when im with youu
hahahahas~
my mind seems to be thinking ncc andd studies everywhere i go
like. .
ncc,
wad's not done?
how's the cadets?
how to improve?
anything i left out?
this andd thats lohs. .
studies,
how to concentrate?
how to apply?
how to face the teachers?
how to face mrs rama next week when i failed my test despite i DID try my best andd study for it?
how about my maths?
how about my coming exams?
how hOw HOW?
hais~
that's why every nite
i cant sleep peacefully
alwaes or often frown to sleep
. . .
`*my rainbow life with your presence-
Friday, August 26, 2005
1:49 AM
yAwnnnnnn*
ophir training todae
okays~
cum back home kinda pek cek
have to do the bottle again
hmmmmmms
then later settle some ncc stuffs
9.30 p.m go bathe~
10 pm sitting on the chair
reading first paragraph of bio
BOOM*
feel aslp (-_____-")
until just now
hais~
everything is not done yet
haven revise
haven make my uniform
have do my tml's trng ncos management
gna stay up todae again
arrggghhhhh~
but everytime benedict also like me never sleep
so can pei wo online chat
LOL~
ncc air is being lead by two pandas =x
okok
gtg study. .
oh yes
wednesdae r a w k s.
bus rides r a w k s s.
`*my eyes sucks; no jing shen-
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
1:03 AM
nothing much to post
gna stay up andd study my bio
starting from now. .
1.03 a.m
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
12:01 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAE SELENA & JIA HUI!
and of cos. .
PY ONE MONTH TO US! xD
`*youu melts my heart.<3
Sunday, August 21, 2005
10:52 AM
morning everyone!
LOL!
woke up early to study (:
just here to have a quick blog
morning breeze was great
hahhaahs~
damn cooling~
eniwae
have been daes that i dreamt of books andd studies
dream until i sianx =x
yesterdae i dreamt of mrs rama
biology?
hais~
two daes ago i dreamt that next week there are 2 bilogy test
on tuesdae andd wednesdae
different topics
arrggghhhh
can i just have other dreams except studies? (-___-")
andd noe wad?
this morning 6a.m
i auto woke up
looked at the clock
i panic!
IM LATE!
cos i tot todae is mondae
but i sit on the bed awhile
'ehs...todae isnt it sundae?'
i confirmed with my sis then go back to sleep (-___-")
hais~
duno wad's wrong with me
hahahhahas~
everything is about studies andd books
sianx 1/2~
gna go study my maths le
ciaoos~
`*thinking of youu makes me smile-
Saturday, August 20, 2005
10:41 PM
study study study!
well
this is wad im gna do-
during this weekend. .
during the next whole week. .
i have no choice
cos next week have so so many test
mondae - e.maths trigonometry
wednesdae - biology
fridae - a.maths
todae woke up at noon
spent my whole afternoon studying bio
but in between a 2 hours sleep
hahahhas~
kind of tired
then continue studying until dinner
but cant absorb much into my mind
duno why~
after having pizza hut!
then jiu cum online! xD
lalallalas~
later gna study again for bio
tml then spend whole dae studying&doing e-maths!
im adapting. .
time-table for next week?
mondae go out tp buy prezzies; at nite study biology
tuesdae! gna be god damn happy,afternoon im outside; tuesdae nite study bio + maths
wednesdae study maths whole dae
thursdae afternn mt ophir training at HQ; at nite duno can tahan andd study anots
fridae! im free from test for the week after a-maths test! like duh~ fridae is the last dae~
saturdae&sundae piah history~ mondae having test andd i need a lot of time for memorizing cos my memory sux like hell; a minute later i can forgot wad ppl tell me or wad i've studied,hais~
hais~
tired lahs~
whole week only study study study
only think about studies andd ncc
hmmmmms
just wna go out andd relax lehs
im adapting to my study life
fridae. .
thanx rachel andd cindy x))
i seem to have forgotten all those wad ppl said to me
really
but it's remembered in my heart
i may not be able to remember
but duno why
deep down inside
i noe the purpose of why youu all saying all those things
the impact is inside me
but still
apologize for forgotting =x
hais~
but it din go out of my ears okays
it enters into my heart (:
my brain isnt working
memory sux
LOL!
btw!
i really really wan to thanx ALL MY FRIENDS!
andd mr tong. .
shorriex to make youu all worry all this while
thanx for wad youu all have told me andd shower me with all the care andd concern
im darn gan dong
really. .
im now trying to adapt to the 'study life'
im trying hard to study
trying hard to understand
trying hard not to let down my mum
not to let down my frends
not to let down my ncc seniors/frends
last but not least!
not to let that stupid TAN CHEE SIONG looked down on UGs!
bloody sucker youu~
gna have my fruits andd study le!
`*60 hours more; uuoyevoli
Thursday, August 18, 2005
8:19 PM
oh yes!
i miss out something important!
EVERYONE!
PLEASE GO AND WATCH 'The Maid'!
hahahhas~
cos my brother is inside! =x
LOL!
he's under the production team
but he also participated in the filming for a few seconds?
hahhahas~
but look out for him okays!
andd hors!
there's one scene whereby there's a bin shaking!
andd when youu saw that!
please remember that it's my brother who's inside shaking the bin!
wahahahhahhaas!
darn fun!
andd the ritual inside the movie is film outside my doorstep! xD
pictures for 'The Maid'!
my korkor andd his frend de uniform for the filming! he looks so damn young,LOL!
my korkor with the female actress in 'The Maid'!
another picture of them! she is so damn chio lohs! andd kor looks so darn paiseh! xD
korkor looks like this now during his NS time!
[7.54 p.m]
todae ahs~
erMmmms. .
average lohs
but lessons kinda sianx~
BAND 5 IS MISSING MISS NG KAE PENG DARN LOTS!
omg~
seriously missing her man
mdm teng darn dots de lohs!
VE lessons darn rocks
seems like we are the only klaz doing VE
other klaz alwaes are free periods
this semester's topic is. .
'sense andd sexuality'
which will catch our teenagers' attention of course
so we tend to be darn attentive x))
One In A Million!
omg
this song is darn nice lohs!
sang by Bosson! (:
after skool
makan then jiu hurry to HQ amoy quee
for the mount ophir training
with the other 8 people (:
actually i dun feel like going mt ophir =x
but well
if i dun go
i wun have any chances going anywhere le
cos im not going for OBS
hais~
eniwae
the training is kinda slack =x
just got 6 stations
push-ups andd all those lohs
but next training think is much tougher de
no comments*
next week have a lot of test
as usual~
have E-maths; biology; A-maths
hais~
duno wad to sae except for hais~
nothing much to sae
nothing to comment about
just sick of these kinda things
PICTURES!*
my neighbour andd me! he's damn cute lohs! xD
the 77th street plastic bag! it's so darn cool!
hehehhes!* <3
`*5 more daes-
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
10:59 PM
lallas~
duno why damn happy todae when i went to skool todae
I MISS ALL MY FRENDS!
okays
it may sounds stupid
but im absent for one dae andd i really miss them like crazy! xD
got back my biology test
the klaz kinda reprimanded by mrs rama
cos we have 15 failures
andd the first time mrs rama came across this kind of results
mine is 6/25
well
expected to fail eniwae
physics test after skool!
first time do physics test so happy!
cos i did study for it
but too gan jiong
at first jiu blank out liaos (-____-")
but think can mian qiang pass bahs
i also duno
bio consultation later
no time for my lunch
sianx~
dun really like consultations
so sianx...
stayed skool until 6p.m
off i went to J8 with retsel eehc!
YEAY~
go andd hunt presents! xD
long time never shop
damn excited
hahahahs~
shorriex angelia to lost your ear studs (-__-")
supposed to get the backing or wadever it is called for youu
but get le
then later i lost the whole packet (-___-")
how clumsy can i get lohs~
i bought 3 pairs of ear studs
same alphabet but different colours
WEEETS!~
had a hard time choosing the present!
MUST sae a BIG 'THANK YOU' to RETSEL EEHC!
for accompanying me; takopachi; helped me take things; helped me try clothes!
wahahahhas!
andd everything okays!
DA HAO REN~ xD
i owe youu a meal!
andd i meant it okays! x))
actually wan post some pictures
but the photobucket aint working
next time then! x))
tml having mt ophir training at HQ tml
hais~
sianx 1/2~
`*seeing youu has become my hobby-
[1.02 a.m]
oh well
for the first time
which is also the last time
i pon skool todae =x
surprsing hurhs?
i myself dun believe it too
my report book will appear one less number under the attendance!
hais~
why cant i be really sick?
but everything is really unexpected lahs
was feeling damn damn tired yesterdae when i was trying to study my physics
(supposed to have 2 test todae; physics andd SS,but eniwae SS test was cancelled)
i din sleep at all on sundae nite
was studying my chinese
cum to skool damn pek cek
yesterdae nite
tried to absorb
but everything was just too late
im just suck at time management can
was msging siao kia(zl)
he noes im darn tired inside out
he suggest that i take a break from skool
was having a hard time deciding
but tried to study
really damn tired
so decided not to go skool todae
sleep all i want
rest all i want
wad i need is just rest
andd one dae break from everything
but feeling damn weird this morning
found myself on my bed when im supposed to be in skool
have a lot of feelings todae
weird; sad; relax; guilty; troubled; unhappy; scared
surprisingly found no 'happy' inside
well
i myself also duno why. .
n u m b.
mum din ask me anything todae
btw i msg her yesterdae nite when she's aslp to sae i dun wan go skool cos im feeling very tired
guess she noes that i myself noe wad im doing bahs
but think she kinda disappointed in me
studied physics since i woke up todae
understand more
but unit 7.5 onwards jiu blur liaos
sianx 1/2
so here i am online blogging (:
gna continue study later
damn troubled or rather sianx recently
chu kou kai kou dou shi 'study'
but end up not doing great
not even a pass
hais~
i aint happy at all
couldnt sleep
im sleepy
im tired
i wan to sleep
but at the same time i cant sleep
so contradicting hurhs
but. .
i noe i wun be sleeping well
im having those feelings that i have a lot of things undone
but i duno wad it is
hais~
let me off can
fang guo wo lahs~
siaokia
dun worry (:
same goes for my caring frends around me! xD
i miss angelia; alvin andd him! xD
`*countdown 6 daes-
Sunday, August 14, 2005
10:06 PM
let me s l e e p
sucky me with a sucky attitude
once again. .
FCUK OFF BOOKS!
Saturday, August 13, 2005
12:18 PM
maybe or perhaps im wrong
shorriex
i've nothing more to sae
just wan to tell everyone
'do wad youu think is right, dun do wad youu think is wrong'
quoted from felix ong (:
im hecking everything. .
but i cant . .
perseverance i must`
going out soon
just want to relax
break away from E V E R Y T H I N G !
`*i was so happy T H E N-
Friday, August 12, 2005
10:47 PM
very physically andd emotionally tired
broke down countless times todae
even during lessons
hais~
is troubled the same as stressed?
i felt no stress?
i felt MORE troubled
maybe
perhaps
it's the same
thanx a lot to shiuan shiuan; cheryl; wei ling !
hahhahas~
still have small; medium; big shoulder de worghs
how lame can shiuan shiuan be too?
LOL!
but thanx eniwae yea
dang ran not forgetting youu again
never failed to make me smile or laugh (:
but really shorriex that recently have to make youu worry for me
i will take care alright
friends out there
dun worry about me okays
i will be fine
andd dun be too scared to approach me when see me very dao
i just wish to be a sadist
im trying to be . .
NCOs
i duno wad to sae about youu all
think think think
wad izuan andd ka tat said todae is all i wan to tell youu all
wad we can do is to tell; scold; pump youu
but youu tell me
does it help?
if yes
im glad (:
if not
wad youu all wan us to do then?
we CANT do anything actually
it is ALL up to youu all to decide
youu all wan to be arrogant
fine
i cant do anything
youu wan to heck wad izuan & others told us
fine too
i also cant do anything
but hey
does it help the unit anots?
can youu all like spare a thought for the unit?
andd dun alwaes put yourself before the unit/cadets can?
we ARE the current leaders
our job is lead the cadets
our job is to bring the unit to greater heights
why why?
youu tell me why?
where the fuck is the united charlie?
youu tell me lahs
there's times i really wan to scream andd yell at youu all
but i din
cos i cant
i cant bear to scold youu all
i wan to see if youu all will auto change if i never sae anything anots
i trust youu all
i put all my hopes on youu all
but everyone; everything; disappoints me
youu noe im not only feeling angry?
im feeling MORE sad than angry
im so sad that our unity is gone youu noe
youu all noe that anots?
REFLECT can!
WAKE UP YOR BLOODY IDEAS!
i seriously cant do anything
everything it's inside youu
i duno wad youu all are thinking
i duno wad youu all wan
i dun expect much from youu all
do youu noe youu all seem so unfamiliar to me?
do youu noe youu all are like strangers to me?
i just wan the OLD charlie back
those daes. .
when we cried together
doing everything together
have youu all CLEAN forgotten about that?!
can youu all please tell me?
PLEASE~
for once
i beg youu
im really helpless towards youu all
wad youu all have changed into
disappointed me; benedict; sirs; mdms; COs
wad's more do youu wan?
my job as an USM is supposed to lead everyone to the TOP
my job is to get everything nicely done
BUT!
my job is also youu all as NCOs de job
each andd everyone is a leader
post is NOTHING
everyone is capable to do something
we have our own strength
andd why dun you all show out all your capabilities?
but i have to sae
if this is going to continue
dun blame me for being harsh
im serious
i wun care about fame or wadsoever
NCC is NCC
there's alwaes a clear line
this is wad myself have learnt todae
if youu all dun change
shorriex for me being harsh to youu all
lastly
i must sae the training plan is kinda rush
my apologies. .
benedict andd i will try to make everything nicely done
so youu all will have a better idea wad's going on
anything can alwaes cum find us okays
last decision is still yours...
we are still O N E`
`*set-backs is for us to fall andd learn how to stand up-
had a long chat with lester just now
the feeling is 'wow'
hahhahhas~
as in like found someone same as me
ncc ncc ncc ncc ncc
studies go away~
we crap so much
my brain isnt working anymore
just wish to sleep since 10p.m just now
but i cant sleep in peace
i hate it
i have to think about everything
ncc training
studies
tml chinese test
mrs rama
wad she gna sae. .
hais~
`*HECK-
Thursday, August 11, 2005
11:16 PM
back to blog!
change of seat todae!
cant deny that im god darn happy
everyone can predict that i will be flying in the sky when ms zaiton saes im gna change seat!
whahahahs!
my new partner is JACKIE TAN!
has no grudges sitting with him (:
he's a nice guy
andd SUPER humorous lahs~
can make me laugh non-stop
hahahhahas~
after skool stayed back
discussed about the training plan with benedict awhile
then my mood changed
suddenly think of so many things after jonathan's talk when i came back from the toilet
cant control anymore so. .
eniwae
thanx a lot of people~
just not in the mood yea
had a good cry just now
hahahahs~
but not really good lahs~
never cry all out
long time never cry le =x
dumb-ass
LOL!
well
feeling much better eniwae
duno how am i going to face mrs rama tml
hais~
im scared actually. .
i have so many fears inside me
i just blocked everyone from my inner me
i may seem happy
but im not . .
pardon me~
tml gna have training
benedict is not coming
bless me~
let me zi sheng zi mie suan le~
wna thanx 2 very important people-
felix ong andd alvin yew!
youu noe why,i dunid to spell out everything... (:
of cos not forgetting youu. . <3
`*youu alwaes make my dae dear-
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
11:05 PM
damn fucked up
just realized physics test is next week
not tml
waste my fcuking time
waste my fcuking worries
waste my fcuking afternoon
waste my fcuking dae
andd wad?
screwed up my daes totally!
cant hand in my training plan on time
din study for my a-maths test on fridae when i can
im god darn fcuking tired
i wanna quit skool
i wanna stay AWAY from those fcuking books
i told youu!
i REFUSED to study!
i DUN WAN to study!
studies AINT for me!
i HATE studies!
STUDIES S U C K S!
okays!
im a LOSER!
I NOE THAT!
FUCK OFF!
okays
shall stop all my venting
stop all vulgarities
if he sees this mess
my head sure kena chop off by him
andd he will be darn angry
hahahahhas~
just let me be wild sometimes
xing hao you ni
`*when im very unhappy, i will feel consoled when i think of youu-
[3.01 pm]
lalas~
went out yesterdae at the last minute
received a call from jiyong to go andd joined them at northpoint
went out of the house at around 5 p.m?
took mrt there andd saw alvin they all while waiting
alvin; yee yew; phoebe; gian jie; shiuan shiuan; cheryl; jia yi
after a while
jiyong; ghim yang andd ying hui came
so whole bunch of people together! xD
yuzhe joined us too!
took mrt back to amk
intended to go ghim yang's house
but in the end dun have
so two groups separated
me; jiyong; ghim yang; ying hui; yuzhe; jia yi one group
karen joined us later
yee yew they all went alvin's house
we wandered around amk
nothing to do
was troubling where to go
ended up staying at amk until 7 p.m
decided to go arcade
slacked there awhile till 7+ p.m
went to yishun for the fireworks!
YEAY!~
so nice!
but the super nice ones was after the 'small break' after a few fireworks
already kept my camera in the bag
so very lazy to take out again
so din take those nice fireworks
nvm~
was lost with the others
left jiyong andd me
andd the field there no reception de
so have to go to the mall then able to reach them
from 8+ p.m at popular waited till 9+ p.m (-__-")
but it doesnt matter
im not bored eniwae
hahahahs~ x))
after that jiu slacked at northpoint awhile
went home after that
reached home at around 10+ p.m
another tiring dae~
waited until 12 a.m to wish alvin happy birthdae
off i went to bed
toooooo tired
hahhahahs~
but a happy one! xD
PICTURES TIME!
blur*
in the mrt from yishun to amk
yee yew's head! LOL!
SO COOL! xD
yuzhe andd ghim yang with the prawn crackers! LOL!
ying hui GAY! with karen's hairband! LOL!
damn pissed with these pictures~ i suck in it,destroyed the pics,but he R O C K S! LOL! <3
yishun fireworks!
fireworks from my house!
im so god damn fucking pissed with youu guys lahs
wad's wrong hurhs?
can anyone just tell me?
I. Q U I T !
the game is O V E R.
n0o Mo R E-
`*hate myself-
Monday, August 08, 2005
12:56 AM
happy birthdae SINGAPORE!
LOL!
just saw a lot of fireworks around national stadium there from my house
to think they have fireworks at this late hour
LOL!
managed to captured a few just now
but a bit small
upload next time!
8/8/2o05
finally is the dae which UGs waited for so long
the dae which our efforts is gna paid off
but it rained when the parade is supposed to start
hais~
had a hard time persuading ppl to help clean the parade square
times whereby wei xun,yee yew andd me go andd clean
but later kena 'chased out' by sirs
cos actually we are not supposed to do the saikang wearing our uniform
but no choice mahs~
at last the cleaners came (:
the parade aint that bad
but it's toooooooooo short
andd starting mine zao sia abit
hais~
bad bad~
a lot of sirs pon skool andd came to amkss
hahahhas~
oh yeah!
i was so god darn gan jiong before i went into the parade square
andd everyone came telling me to relax
andd specially came downstairs to support me
so gan dong!
people have CINDY ONG!; lester; jonathan; tommy; azmi; edwin ang; NPCC sirs
omg,think still have others
oh yes
mr tong too
LOL!
andd everyone came taking pictures with me before i went in
thanx CINDY ONG for all the hugs!
it made me feels great andd relax
hahahhas~
parade started
the crowd is so noisy
remembering lester telling me it is my parade square
dun shout when ppl are still making noise
cos i dun feel like as if im owning the parade square
but waited for so long
haven quieten down
no choice
shouted~
after that jiu yee yew andd wei xun
last part my kekanan pusing first time wrong leg
hais~
bad bad~
oh yes oh yes!
the brown pacestick from MFSS
lester borrowed from them for yee yew
it's. .
'WOW'
hahahahhas~
but i still love mine
cos it's passed down by all my seniors x))
normally de rehearsals
the command all so clear and audible
but cant expect the skool to be so noisy
andd all our commands are 'covered' by the noise
hais~
the national dae msg 4 pages long!
god~
but. .
WE DID IT!
THE UGs!
haahahhas~
uniform groups rawks the parade lahs!
not forgetting all the commanders are from 2/3`o4!
wei xun(PC); yee yew(2nd IC); me(RSM); siang ee(GOH commander)
wahahhahahas~
2/3`o4 is just tooooo talented
WE RAWK!
LOL!
after that jiu shi the stalls le
have a lot of cock ups at first
the hot water
the ice andd all that
wanna thanx A LOT to LUO LING andd SOFIAH!
they contributed DARN LOTS to the stall lohs
without them
think the stall is nt gna open
the cafe latte was sold out
next is milo dinosaur!
LOL!
everything is sold out!
lalalaas~
thanx DENNIS for the blender too! xD
thanx ALVIN YEW for making the effort to help me about the coffee information!
took a lot of pictures
too bad i never bring my camera
cos my korkor need to use
hais~
when i alwaes have 'big dae' andd a lot of pictures to take
he also need to use it (-____-")
alwaes so coincidence one
hais~
yeaps
PICTURES!
hahahhaas~
i love them!
people!
those whose cameras have pictures of youu andd me andd others
please send it to me! xD
nice ones without me also can!
NDP RAWKS!
wahahahahhaas~
only have a few from ghim yang who received from angelia
i just post one for youu to see first
i love this picture
wahahahhas!~
too bad the camera is shifted
blur~
DAO! ying hui; ghim yang; jiyong; angelia; me
everyone was so busy with their own stalls andd stuffs
3/3 won the ethnic costumes competition!
hahahas~
1/2 of the klaz wore ethnic costumes
1/2 of the klaz in the parade
no one din wear ethnic costumes
so cool right
wahahahhas~
after packed up jiu take taxi with jocelyn; jason andd samuel andd chiong to my BELOVED primaary skool!
JING SHAN PRIMARY SCHOOL!
miss mr swarna
miss 6/1`o2
miss the fun lessons with them
miss everything in primary skool!
so carefree~
so happy to see all my old frends andd mr swarna! xD
noticed that the ex-students who stayed back
all are from mr swarna klaz
no matter is sec 1 or 2 or 3
hahahhaas~
he's just so R A W K.
hockey
as usual
wahahahhas~
see them play
felt so consoled
also duno why
just miss those daes with them
sec 1 gals played captains' ball
the skool left us~
LOL!
the DM so kp
no one likes youu
lalallaas~
oh yes
something i wanted to mention
that bookshop actually turns into a 'POPULAR'
there's actually a POPULAR in a skool?
i was like. .
'are youu kidding?' when i saw that
hahahahas~
jsps din changed a lot except for the POPULAR
wondering where the money goes to
jsps?
POPLAR?
hahahhaas~
realized 1990 batch is so old now
LOL!
mr swarna still thought we are sec 2s
he's so humorous lahs
like last time
hahahhas~
when first came forward to us todae
he said. .
'hey...'
andd stepped onto my boots
next is jocelyn
haahahas~
just love his wae of teaching andd mixing around with his students lahs~
rawks rawks rawks!
lalalalas~
left the skool at 1p.m
apologized to my primary skool frends
shorriex for pang-seh-ing youu all
rushed home
washed hair; cleaned myself; changed
andd off i go to meet ghim yang andd jiyong x))
saw my primary skool frends there too
chua tio when i went in(before i went to kfc,alrdy noe they are in there)
cos they looked so stern suddenly
tot they angry~
hais~
my apologies. .
we had our lunch andd decided to watch the charlie andd the chocolate factory
went to j8
but full house
alot of people were there
hais~
so walked awhile
went to ghim yang's house slacked
but for not very long lahs~
later jiu went home with him (:
reached home at 6+ p.m
was so tired
sleep until just now 10+ p.m
woke up andd bathe
wasnt that hungry
but too bad my dinner is bought
hais~
have so much to think recently
all different matters
just too much
im too tired-
`*give me a break-
Sunday, August 07, 2005
5:37 PM
oh well
bless me please (-___-")
it's getting worse
todae woke up at 1+ p.m
lying on the bed
wish that i go andd bang the wall andd that's it
or maybe rather after tml ndp
LOL!
cos without doing anything
once i woke up
my shoulder is aching like hell liaos
until now
hais~
hope i can make it through for tml's NDP
guan yin ma po pi me
LOL!
yesterdae
love youu lots . .
hmmms
reached skool at 7.10pm?
ndp rehearsal
not too bad
getting better
but the kekanan lurus for the SC still very bad
well
ystd was 'arrggghhhh'
got once is the worst ache i've ever get
like all concentrated on my shoulder
andd making me wna cry liaos
heng it's only once like that
if each one is like that
ystd i gna peng
hais~
yesterdae was quite fun lahs
omg!
the black pacestick broke!
arrggghhhh~
seems that the things once got onto my batch
all spoilt =x
LOL!
eehc retsel!
P.U.F!
omg!
getting lamer!
jun yi tan!
wahhahahahs!
rehearsal ended at around 1.50+ p.m?
thanx jiyong andd ghim yang pei wo waited for my mum (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAE ANDREW LAU!
shorriex cant celebrate your birthdae with the rest
happy 15th birthdae once again! xD
rushed home
bathe andd got changed
met bo hao,jono andd tian bo at the bus-stop opposite the bus-stop near my house
the first scene was there
was darn pai seh all the wae
later went jubilee took neos for the filming use
later took bus andd set off to city hall
went esplanade then to changi airport
took a few pictures
shall update next time
was darn darn tired when filming
cos fridae nite 3 a.m then sleep
overslept andd 6.30pm woke up
LOL!
finished filming at around 10+p.m
went to the cocoa trees to buy chocolates!
hehehhes~
was thinking spending $30+ (all my money at that time) on chocolates
cos the chocolates there look so darn nice!
but in the end never
chocolates for youu tml! (:
took mrt back to ang mo kio
thanx bh for sending me home
went home; bathe; sleep (:
one tiring dae-
tml will be the actual NDP
so kong bu
hahahas~
hope it will be the best one (:
though it's quite sux without the whole band
but it will still rawks with all the uniform groups!
abit contradicting
hahahs!
but
everyone is gna make sure tml de parade rawks!
abit gan jiong now
first one to go into the parade
duno wad will happen
LOL!
wish everyone goodluck for tml!
wish myself goodluck too!
hahahahas~
now i shall congrats to kee jia min!
LOL!
stay happy andd xin fu keas! x))
[replies to my tag]
karenn.-
hahhahas,yahs,i noe wad youu mean,lols~ yeahs,xie xie for your zhu fu... (:
....-
i wun break it if i make a promise,andd i din even noe who youu are,if youu bu shuang,cum to me andd confront lahs...so hum to tag at my board for wad...TBL~
qiao yu-
dunid to challenge,it's confirm youu higher one...mcq five questions nia,youu tee-kum also can pass...for mine is the whole paper can be said as never do at all...a zero for sure...
lester-
hahhas,will take care if i can...lionel? hmmm,i duno wad happen ehs! wad thing? yea! NDP shall go god darn smoothly! xD yeah,everyone deserves the credit! UG RAWKS! wahahahas! study hard andd be a good boy! LOL!
BIGshotNO1-
heys! hahahas,yoyo! yea yea! it's not so long actually,it's god darn long,LOL! =x yeah,i will take care,youu too! dun leave unahappy scars in your life,youu noe wad i mean...take GREAT care yea... (:
turtle wx-
hahhas...wei xun isit? i at first duno who youu are one,tot is wei xiang...then i think again,think of youu! LOL! BESTofLUCK for tml worghs! good afternoon PC! wahahhaas...youu also must drink lots andd LOTS of water,youu have so many commands to shout...hahahas! take care yourself too,espacially your throat! xD
1ma9inati0n-
hahahhas! sweet le lohs,hahahas~ xin fu yi bei zi bahs...look ahead andd dun look back,wei wei lai zhao xiang...dun do anything silly anymore if anything bad happen [touchwood*] yea...friends will alwaes be there for youu... (: i wan 2 longitudinal plates of banana split! xD
cin-
heys! hahahas...CHEER UP I WILL! LOL! hahahs...take care too,dun so shagged! xD *muacks*
vivien-
DARLING! wahahahs...shorriex,i noe the bread is disgusting too...LOL! but that's the only thing that i can find which is edible at that point of time with the fastest speed...hahahas...dunid thanx yea...dun alwaes ask me to take care when youu your ownself is not...YEA! NDP will definitely rawks with both of us around! not forgetting the others too! youu better have your breakfast tml! WARNING*
gna clear my room or study now...hahhas...if not he will be disappointed if i never study...
[sad to sae,i alwaes sae im gna study,end up not doing it]
.s u c k s.
`*freaking sweet farni-
Saturday, August 06, 2005
2:22 AM
yoyo!
hahahhas~
here to blog again
errrr
like duh!~
LOL!
so i shall begin (-___-")
thursdae
damn it
3a.m then sleep
becos had to rush the portfolio
darn sleepy lohs~
andd cum maths klaz
miss ng suddenly scold us like hell
hmmms?
but she still r a w k s. (:
she's a very nice teacher seriously
andd wtf?
sitting arrangement in the klaz chnged
i miss ying li,shermin andd qing kang!
they so rawk can
had so much fun sitting with them all this while
now sitting directly in front of the teachers
okays
forget it
but my partner chnge from jannson to song hao
that moment i seriously darn buay song with teachers
gave them sucky attitude =x
LOL!
i cant stand unhygenic ppl!
andd those who noes
youu shld noe wad song hao did last time in klaz
so god darn disgusting
OH PLEASE~
I WAN A CHANGE~
broke down later =x
hahahahs~
but listened to 'him' bahs
sit for a week
then see how lohs
if really wan change
then tell the teachers
i wan shift back! xp
but most probably canot
who ask me alwaes sleep in klaz
hO hO hos!
[FCUK! i wrote so long just now,continue from this draft andd everything is gone! FCUK IT! darn pissed! i wun write so long as just now liaos,pardon me]
after skool is the australian maths competition
duno how to do
darn tired le
so 3/4 of the answers are all 'tee-kum'
without looking at the questions andd i just shaded the ovals
who cares~
after that went to the chinese physician there for x-ray
andd who noes that it's closed on thursdae!
arrggghhhh!
then later went for mount ophir medical check-up
but have to go back again next week
cos i haven take my x-ray yet
andd the check up darn long andd disgusting
shant elaborate
mount ophir
yes?
or
no?
mum abit reluctant to let me go becos of my shoulder
but the last decision
she still leave it to me (:
came home darn tired
intend to rest awhile
but ended up sleeping until 10 p.m
went bath
andd intended to rest awhile again
andd wake up to study bio
but i ended up sleeping AGAIN!
i noe nuts about the chapter lohs
who ask me i alwaes never pay attention in klaz
wad happen lahs?
din i sae im gna work hard all that after my mid-year?
sherf reminded me todae about my post last time
hais~
wad's becoming of me?
ARRGGGHHHH!
was making my no.3 for yesterdae's rehearsal until 1+ a.m
darn tired-
was thinking of quitting skool last time
now i still have the thought
but
can i?
i doubt so. .
fridae
i noe im gna flunk my bio test
came skool early todae
reached at around 6.47 a.m?
was holding the bio book
but nothing went in
i noe im gna get a zero
i noe my limits
if i can do it
i sure sae can de
but
i cant
i really will get a zzero
the entire paper i duno how to do
can youu imagine how pathetic it is?
so disappointed with myself lahs~
i hate studies!
shorriex 3/3 for pulling down our msg
noe wad's my life in skool?
everydae
i just go skool for the sake of going
i dun listen during klaz
just depend on my mood bahs
but alwaes is the same
dun wish to listen
i just REFUSE to study can
wad i hope everdae is just the bell ring
the last ring. .
i think i go skool = din go skool
was looking forward to ndp during all the lessons todae
i just love my CCA
but so many problems now
hais~
had a little talk about them with izuan todae
everyone is so disappointed with us now youu noe
so am i. .
w h y?
why everyone is changing
i wan the old us back
when we cry andd have fun together
but it seems so hard now
i andd benedict will try our best to get youu all back
but
can i?
i hope. .
later ndp
my shoulder again
some point of the time
from the shoulder to the elbow then to the hand
the E N T I R E arm kena~
ache like hell
i just hope to fall out sometimes
but i cant
the first priority is the parade
wei da ju zhao xiang (:
hais
wasnt that bad todae
but i just scared the maju part
no timing
hahahas~
okays
we need co-ordination
andd i shall make sure we have it on mondae (:
tml im gna be very busy
after ndp must rush home andd get chnged for bh's project filming
from amk to city hall to changi
he said gna end at latest 11+ p.m bahs
i hope to spend my saturdae with youu
but i cant
LOL!
too bad
TODAE IS SATURDAE! xD
after ndp rehearsal
went kfc with jiyong,wan joo,ying hui andd you xu for dinner
yee yew andd shawal joined us later
reached home at 9.30 p.m
tired
sleep until 11+ p.m just now
woke up andd bathe
andd here i am blogging!
LOL!
mr tong andd ms tay had a serious talk with some NCOs todae
they darn angry
hais
WHY again?
they are so disappointed
so am i andd ben
benedict lai!
dun so stress okays
we shall work together andd bring them back!
think a lot of things todae
as usual lahs
hahhas~
dae-dreaming rawks~
todae seriously noticed andd think of this. .
wanna thanx lester for taking the time to help out in ndp
prelims coming andd here youu are helping us
really thanx a lots
must jia youu for your studies keas!
LOL!
received a msg from previous ASM
she said me andd benedict can wear their uniforms with the msg rank andd lanyard
LOL!
darn shiok if like that
but perhaps we not wearing bahs (:
cum back
mum told me my cousin
err...
isit my cousin?
my mum's korkor's daughter
wadever~
she bought me a ripcurl bag
LOL!
she's kinda close to my family lahs
but im not i think =x
eniwae!
i realized things around me is getting more pink when my favourite colour is purple!
LOL!
but the bag is still nice! (:
take ONE-
take TWO-
i think everything is just NOT right
not going smoothly
hais-
everthing just sucks
ncc; studies; my attitude; my mood; everything except youu (:
xing hao you ni zai shen bian
[i think this is just half of wad i typed just now lohs! stupid blogger! i spent so much time blogging andd i publish,youu tell me have error! WTH! make me have to type again!]
`*studies S U C K S; facing the 4 white walls; locked me up-
Thursday, August 04, 2005
1:54 AM
yAwnnnnns*
so long never sleep at such late hour le
just finished my portfolio
not really actually
i miss out the introduction
darn lazy to do
hais~
overall im quite satisfied lahs
perhaps i shld just chiong the introduction
so the other pages wun be wasted
or else becos of the introduction then minus marks
ARGGHHHH!
WADEVER~
gna go x-ray later in the afternoon
hope im just fine (:
darn tired
hais
thursdae de time-table sarks lohs
i sure very pek cek later one
cos feeling tired andd still need to tahan
ARRGGGHHHHH!
specially thanx to those who've tagged at my board!
thanx for youu all de concern
so touched can!
hahahhas~
im gna be alright (:
yesterdae was great
a dae to remember
`*youu are my sugar-
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
10:44 PM
so disappointed with myself
spoilt shoulder
hais~
x-ray here i cum =x
people around me are so depressed lately
without thinking jiu cut their wrist
WTH~
please treasure yourself okays
cutting wrist is not a trend
dun be so stubborn!
cutting dun solve anything
use your brain + heart to solve your problems
dun try andd hurt yourself people
youu will regret
andd when youu think back when youu are older
youu will think it's darn STUPID
not worth it people
seriously...
cherish yourself okays
i see youu all like that
seriously duno wad to sae
sae wad i can sae le
*youu* still dun listen
same goes to my other frends
DUN CUT!
so many people cutting lohs
it sux okays
the feeling sux when see youu all hurt yourself
dun be so selfish can!
think of your family andd frends!
maybe youu think by cutting your wrist makes youu feel relief
but hey!
youu are making all the frends around youu so god darn sad!
so please think TWICE or even TRICE or INFINITY before youu act!
LOVE YOU, MY FRENDS!
todae reached skool darn early
6.45am jiu reach le
everyone who's in skool then was saeing 'wow,so qi ji'
LOL!
yea
indeed (:
(for those who duno me,i alwaes reached skool few minutes before the bell goes)
mum had to go pasir ris tekong there fetched my kor kor mahs
for his leg check-up
x-ray lohs~
DARN pek-cek during all the lessons todae
the time-table for todae is actually quite easy to get over de
but!
becos ystd 11+pm sleep
make me god darn tired todae
cos recently my bedtime is 10pm
suddenly 11+pm sleep
kaos!
da-bu-lek tahan ahs!
hahahhas~
then show abit attitude lohs =x
hahahas
two periods seems like so many years
1 andd 1/2 hours!
can die i tell youu!
especially when im so god darn tired!
bleahs~
ndp sux
my shoulder
arrggghhhh~
let me off please
qiu qiu ni
went kfc for dinner with jiyong,ghim yang,ying hui add andrew
darn farni~
ARRGGGHHHH!
thanx darling vivien for the water andd massaging
so great to have youu! xD
thanx my dear frends who show your care andd concern too!
tml gna bring sling bag
bag pack will make my shoulder worse
hais~
duno when mum is gna bring me for check-up
oh yahs~
selected for mount ophir
hahahas~
have to go for medical check-up for that too
hit two birds with one stone =x
two check-ups at one go~
lalaalalas~
I LOVE MY LIFE!
s i m p l y R A W K S!
my everydae life alwaes so rawk becos of youu. .
`*though my dae sux; but my night rawks-
Monday, August 01, 2005
11:01 PM
oh dear~
im feeling more andd more xin fu!
im so god darn xin fu can!
hahahhas~
nana na na na!
IM LOVIN' IT!
I LOVE MY DAY!!! xD
i love my foolscape paper! A for APPLE!
PHYSICS! hahahas,caught this! i accidentally saw it! CD andd RADIO! ph god,my pictures so nice! (-____-")
`*youu andd me.me andd youu-
th e g ir l*
16
jsps - amkss
ncc air
13 february 1990
w i sh i n g f or*
bring my parents to overseas with my siblings; a hardworking me; GREAT grades in olvls this year