im wad i am
welcome to my lala land.
i want to live in a world of myself.
no disturbance
no nothing.
just me.
Thursday, December 30, 2004
10:50 PM
siAnx,tOdAe eArly iN thE mOrnIng 9 o'clOck gO skOol dO bAnnEr...hAhAx...hEng jiA mIn gOt cOmE,or elsE i siAnx uNtil diE ahx...hAhAx...aNdd with hEr hElp hOrx,thE bAnnEr dAmn nIcE siA...whO ask hEr hEr art sO gOod ritEx...wAhAhAhAx...but tOdAe hEr mum's birthdAe...sO shE lEft eArly lE,arOund 2 plUs...thEn at 11 a.m...wE wErE hAving our luNch tOgEthEr wIth jOcElyn at mAc...aNdd justiN chuA jux nIcE wOrk at thAt tImE...hAhAx...
OMG`! aftEr thE whOlE thiNg...thOugh hAvEn finIsh,lEft a fEw pArts...my hAnds arE dAmn dirty...cAn't wAsh off lOrx...fUll of BLUE pAint...hAix...my lEg,skirt,shirt...hAnds! all kEnA pAint...hAhAx...multi cOlours...LOL`! wE stOp at arOund 5p.m mAhx...thEn tOok a lOng tImE tO fiNd thE 'tErbEntinE' ( sOmEhOw likE thinnEr ) tO clEan our hAnds aNdd as wEll as thE flOor aNdd tAblEs...hAhAx...k lAhx...originAlly wAn gO J8 cOllEct thiNgs dE...but nEvEr...rAinIng mAhx...sO ask my mum cOmE fEtch mE...
thEn askEd hEr fEtch mE tO pOpulAr tO cOllEct my rEsErvEd luO zhi xiAng CD,cOx tuEsdAe gO,thEy sAe duN hAvE lE,askEd mE tO givE thEm cOntAct numbEr,sO whEn thE stOck cOmE,thEy cAn cOntAct mE...thEn aftEr thAt i gOt bbq mAhx...whO nOes...thE pErsOn cAllEd...aNdd duN expEct mE tO gO cOllEct thAt tImE ritEx...sO i nv...tOdAe thEn gO...AHHH! hAhAx...thEy tOt i not cOming lOrx...thEn thEy sOld awAy minE liaOx...nOw nO stOck agAin...grrr...hAhAx...gOnE agAin,mux wAit agAin...siAnx...
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
3:01 PM
wAhAhAhAx...im bAck tO blOg! hEhEhEhEx...eniwAe,my sOng chAnge lE...okiEx...(thErE's picturEs fOr yOuu all tO viEw bElOw thIs pOst)
wEll...yEstErdAe hAd a bbq wIth my primAry skOol frEnds...hAhAx! it wAs fuN! at szE fOng's cOndO thErE...vEry big aNdd nicE dE...cOx lOts aNdd lOtx of swimmiNg pOols lEhx...evEn plAygrOund pOol...hAhAx...wE gO thErE plAy aNdd paO jiaO siA...dAmn fuN...wAs rAining yEstErdAe's aftErnOon,thEn originAlly ish stArtEd at 5 dE...stArt dE firE mAhx...but eNdd up 6 plUs thEn stArt firE,cOx thAt tImE only drizzliNg...hAhAx...thEn wE cArry a umbrEllA tO shiEld thE pit...hAhAx,in ordEr nOt tO lEt thE chArcOal wEt...hAhAx...fArni siA...but at nitE...nO rAin lE bAhx...but bEfOre thAt im alrEady wEt! thAnx tO my buddy chuN fU! hAhAx...wE wErE plAying at thE bAby pOol mAhx...thEn hOrx...hE wEnt kIckEd thE wAtEr hArdly tOwArds my dirEctiOn,aNdd hAlf of my bOdy wAs wEt! (right sIdE) hAhAx...hAd fuN with hIm yA? =) aNdd rAchEl aNdd jiNg dA...hAhAx...
thEn lAtEr szE fOng cAmE with othEr 6/1 ppl lE...mE aNdd jOcElyn wErE likE...lAmE siA...huANg yIng guAng liNg lAi daO thE gArdEns at bishAn...hAhAx,likE thE ushEr or sOmEthiNg likE thAt...hAhAx...(wE gOt bOw onE ok?! hAhAx,thEn rAchEl aNdd pOlly wErE likE sAeing sO xiA suAy....hAhAx)
thE whOlE dAe wE chit-chAt,tOk cOck,lAmiNg arOund,eAt,bbq,aNdd of cOx gO plAy in thE pOol! hAhAx...but whOlE dAe gOt kEnA frOm 2 diffErEnt sEcurity guArd bEcOx of diffErEnt rEasOns...wAhAhAhAhAhAx!
but aftErAll...hAd a grEat tImE bEing wIth my old frEnds lEhx...hAhAx...6/1`o2 rAwks!
thE lAst onE! at thE plAygr0und pOol! hAhAx...sO mAny nv jOin in siA...but it still rAwks! =D 
anOther mE aNdd szE f0ngg... =D
chEezE! mE aNdd szE f0ngg...hEhEx...
ermx...hAhAx...shu liNg ish lAughing!
yEahx! 6/1 gErx,but nOt all lAhx of cOx... =)
mE aNdd szE f0ng...chEezE! =D
Monday, December 27, 2004
9:50 PM
siAnx...hAhAx...tOdAe wEnt ntuc aNdd inEz hOusE,cOx tMl wE hAving bbq...hAhAx...tOdAe wEnt skOol ncc thEn inEz...nth much,jux eNjOy bEing wIth my primAry skOol frEnds... =)
hEllOx...thIs sOng ish spEciAlly fOr sOmEonE,yOuu shld nOe thIs ish wAd sOng bAhx? te amo...if yOuu gOt sEe thIs,plz tAg,hAhAx,dunId tO usE yOurr nAmE,yEs yOu,ish yOuu intrOduce thIs sOng tO mE dE...jux a sOng frOm mE thIs frEnd...tAkE cArE! =D
Sunday, December 26, 2004
5:38 PM
siAnx diaO...nOwadAes sO lAzy tO blOg lE...jux nOw gO eAt tim sum at shErAtOn tOwErs,$65+,diN hAd much tim sum tOdAe,cOx whEn wE rEachEd thErE 2+ p.m lE...sO mOst of thE thiNgs all finish lE,sO wE hAd a fEw niA...
wAhAhAx...i thursdAe drEamt of jAy chOu bEing my bOyfrEnd mAnx...hAhAx...thE drEam sEems sO rEal lOrx...in thE drEam i still askEd whEthEr im drEamiNg anOtx,thE dEtAils i lAzy tO typE hErE,hAhAx,will writE in my diAry,hEhEx...
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
10:34 PM
yOz! hAhAx...im bAck frOm cAmp...dAmn tirEd mAnx...hAhAx...im sO hAppy...lOlx...cOx i gOttA thE cOmbinEd ncc aIr/lAnd cAmp dE ovErAll outstAnding cAdEt aNdd im thE cOmmAndEr fOr tOdAe's pArAdE,quitE gAn jiOng lAhx,evEn thE spEciAlists alsO in thE pArAdE...hEhEx...but a bit unexpEctEd lAhx...tOt yEe yEw will gEt it...but hE's alsO nOt in thE othEr awArds whIch ish outstAnding cAdEt in eAch plAtOon,hAix...why...hE mux bE vEh sAd...quitE shOcking lOrx...hE's dAmn gOod in evErythIng lOrx...drills,wAdevEr...hEy frEnd,duN givE up aNdd sAd,evEryonE cAn sEe yOurr pOtEntiAls,evEryonE wAs likE tOking abOut yOuu in thE eNtirE cAmp,sO jiA yOuu! hAhAx...okiEx...im tirEd lE...yEstErdAe at cAmp 3 plUs thEn slEep,cOx i gOt thE intErviEw cArriEd outt by thE sIrs...scAry siA...kKx...i will updAtE thE iN aNdd outsidE cAmp dEtAils tMl or fEw dAes lAtEr...chOw! =D
Sunday, December 19, 2004
11:46 PM
yOz!~ hAhAx...siAnx ah...tOdAe dAmn tirEd mAnx...yEstErdAe arOund 3.30pm thEn slEep,tOdAe mOrning 6.30am wOkE up tO gO skOol...hAix...thEn thE thIngy eNdEd arOund 11+...thEn ncc grOup of gErs gO hEartlAndd mAll lOrx...thEn wAlk uNtil 2+...thEy sAe wAn wEnt hOmE...actuAlly originAlly ish wEnt outt wIth scOtt dE bAhx...but duN hAvE lE...thEn i tOdAe nid buy prEsEnt...but mOrning gO outt,fOrgEt tO brIng thE thIng! sO 2+ wEnt hOmE tO tAkE thE thIngs,3 thEn rEach hOmE...thEn arOund 3.30pm jiu wEnt outt agAin lE...siAnx y0uu nOe...all by alOnE...frOm p.s wAlk,thEn nExt ish fAr eAst,wAlk agAin,thEn cAusEwAe pOint...hAix...lOng jOurnEy mAnx...gO uNtil 7 plUs thEn rEach hOmE...thOugh cAn't fInd thE thIng i wAn..but...hAix...a vEh tirEd dAe...whEn wAn tO gO bAck dE shii hOu...alrEady hAlf aslEep liaOx...cAn't evEn wAlk or stAnd prOpErly...i wAs rEally sO tirEd...thEn my lEgs whOlE dAe stAnding...suAn ahx! lOlx...k lAhx...duNn crAp lE...
tMl gOing cAmp...siAnx...jiA mIn sEcOnd dAe thEn cOmE...fIrx dAe nO onE pEi wO gO tOilEt wAsh hAir liaOx...siAnx ahx! hAix...gOnA mIsSh my pOoh bEar!!!!!! lOlx...
szE fOng gOing cut hEr hAir tMl...hAhAx...wIsh hEr gOod lUck...lOlx... =)
Saturday, December 18, 2004
9:51 PM
why on eArth is thEre quArrEls in thIs wOrldd? why cAn't i hAvE a pEacE aNdd quiEt fAmily evErydAe? hAd enOugh lAhx...why mux peOplE chAngE whEn thEy grOw up...fAmily arEn't sO livEly as bEfOrE...hAix...i rAthEr stAy in skOol...why? why?!?! i hAd enOugh all thIs kIndA fAcEs aNdd quArrEls...why wE jUx cAn't baO rOng eAch othEr? bEing pArEnts arE nOt eAsy tOo...hAix...i dunO lAhx...sO sIck of evErythIng in my lifE...jux hOpE tO gO bAck tO my kIndErgArtEn lifE...wu yOu wu lu...
nO onE undErstAnds mE...nO onE nOes wAd i wAn,wAd i dEsirE...
Friday, December 17, 2004
1:43 PM
im sO disAppOintEd nOwx,my suNdAe plAn arE all thrAshEd! nOw im thinking shld i gO skOol,2.30pm,nOw ish 1.40pm lE...hAix...my plAn wAs all haO haO at fIrx dE...nOw...hAix...all chAngEd...i jux cAllEd mum...shE sAe nOt gOing outt on this suNdAe,shE sAe evEryonE nOt frEe...i hAtE it...nOt agAin...my fAmily dAe iSh gOnE...im sO 'tirEd' tO type aNything mOrE...hAix...
.disappointed.
.sad.
.cry.
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
3:26 PM
yEstErdAe nitE wAs a fright fOr mE...i hAd a drEam lAst nItE...cOx rEcently hAvE bEen hOping thE whOlE fAmily cAn gO outt aNdd hAvE mEals likE wE dId bEfOrE,nOwadAes sIs and brOthEr arE sO busy wIth thEir stuffs,nOw dUnn hAvE a chAnce tO gO outt as a fAmily...vEry rArE...thEn yEstErdAe sO mAny activitiEs all infOrmEd mE at onE gO,i wAs likE sO strEssed,cOx suNdAe activitiEs i alrEady plAnnEd,iSh gO outt wIth szE fOng dE,but lAtEr my plAn wAs kEnA spOilt,sEe thE sEquEnce im kEnA infOrmEd fOr activitiEs,fIrx szE fOng infOrmEd mE,i pEi hEr gO cut aNdd rEbOnd hAir,nExt ish my fAmily,thEn nExt nEighbOur cAmE knOcking my dOor sAeing hE ish celEbrAting hIs 21st birthdAe,ask us cOmE alOng,okiEx,until hErE,originAlly alrEady sEttlEd,thEn,hAix,wtf,ncc sAe suNdAe gOt thIngs,wAd thE hEll...hAix...thEn i criEd yEstErdAe,nOt fOr lOng lAhx,fOr a whilE only...thEn lAtEr gO fInd my bEst frEnd 'su ku'...lOlx...fElt bEttEr...thEn lAtEr dEcide lE,ncc mOrning,lEave eArlier,nExt ish my fAmily,nExt ish szE fOng,nExt ish cElebrAtiOn...hAixx...
bAck tO mAin tOpic...yEstErdAe i hAd a drEam...in my hOusE...abOut my fAmily...i wAs suggEsting gOing outt...as a fAmily...thEn lAtEr duNo wAd hAppEnEd(cOx sOmEtImEs drEams arE unclEar),thEn kEnA sAid + scOld by my sIs...thEn i sAe 'thIs iSh nOt wAd i wAn,nOt gO eAt eAt,nOt gO thAt pArticulAr rEstAurAnt hAvE lUnch,wAd i wAnt iSh thE whOlE fAmily cAn eAt outt tOgEthEr!'
i wAs crying bAdly in thE drEam...i wAs sO tOng ku insidE...suddEnly i wOkE up,hAlf awAkE,i nOe im awAke,aNdd yOuu nOe wAd? in rEal lifE,im alsO rEally cryIng bAdly,i wAs kIndA tirEd,but i nOe im cryIng bAdly in rEal lifE tOo,thEn a bIt gOng gOng mAhx,thEn i wipEd awAy my tEars...a whilE lAtEr...fEll aslEep lE...
Tuesday, December 14, 2004
6:27 PM
hAix...yEstErdAe wAs hurt...lOlx...by a frEnd...i duNo why...but it hAppEnEd...pErhAps i kEpt on rEjEct whEn hE askEd mE outt tO hIs chUrch dE severAl outings...but thE rEasOns i gAvE hIm rEally ish rEal dE,nOt excusEs...but i hAvE nO chOice,if i cAn gO,i will gO dE...but i really cAn't gO mAhx...yEstErdAe i mEssAge hIm...aNdd yOuu nOe wAd...hE askEd mE 'erm...srry...who r u?' hAix...at thAt mOmEnt...i wAs hurt...why? hE deletEd my numbEr huhx...but...why? bcOx i rEjEcted hIm a fEw tImEs,dEspitE hIs 'detErminAtiOn' tO ask mE outt? hAix...thAt mOmEnt i wAs lying on my bEd,thAt tImE,i suddEnly fElt sO sAd aNdd...hAix...clOsEd my eyEs...tOok awAy aNdd off my hAndphOnE...hidE bEsidE my pOoh bEar(my lEft)...cOx bEsidE my pOoh bEar ish wAll lE,right ish thE tAblE aNdd my sIs thErE...lOlx...thEn...hAix...i duNo hOw lE...disAppOintEd aNdd sAdd...i fElt thAt im sUch a fAilurE iN frEndshIp...or rAthEr evErythIng! hAix...nOw...i dUnn fEel likE cOntActing hIm,thOugh hE msg mE lE,tOdAe mOrnig on my hAndphOnE thEn sAw it...tOo disAppOintEd tO sAe aNythIng,jUx aNythIng...
Monday, December 13, 2004
11:37 PM
hEyx evEryonE..thIs iSh my thIrd skIn...hAvEnt mAkE finish yEt...btw...i hAvE my prEviOus skIns thAt i usEd bEfOrE thE liNkx,cAnn gO aNdd sEe if y0uu wAn,ish undEr thE dArlinkx...
siAnx diaOx ahx...duNo wAdd t0 writE nEhx...nOthing tO writE...rEcEntly nOthing hAppEnEd...but fEel sO cOnfusEd aNdd tr0ublEd bcOx of sOmE thIngs...yEstErdAe din hAd a gOod slEep...cAn't gEt tO slEep,thOugh wAs quitE tirEd,fIrx tImE likE thAt,tirEd cAn't gEt tO slEep...cOx i wAs thinking aNdd thInking aNdd thInking...hAix...frOm 11 pm...nOthing tO dO,sO liE on thE bEd...try vEh hArd tO slEep,but cAn't...hAix...aNdd i liE on bEd,cOmE outt...wAlk hErE wAlk thErE...bAck tO bEd,cAn't slEep...gO outt of thE rOom agAin...wAlk frOm my rOom tO living rOom tO kitchEn,kitchEn tO living rOom aNdd tO my bEdrOom...hAix...i yEstErdAe rEpeAt thIs 'prOcEdurE' duNo hOw mAny tImEs liaOx...cOuntlEss ahx...rEpEat until 12.45 pm likE thAt,fOr 1 hOur aNdd 45 minutEs...kOr wEnt tO slEep...sO living rOom's lights off lOrx...but sis still awAkE tO dO puzzlE...wE shArE rOom lAhx...thEn hAix...nO chOicE...thEn liE on thE bEd lOrx...thInking...aNdd...finAlly...fEll aslEep lE...
Thursday, December 09, 2004
1:55 PM
lOlz...nOthing tO dO nAhx...yEstErdAe jUx wEnt skOol pArticipAtE in thE cAmpfirE...lOlx...yuAn lAi ish gO thErE zO-bO...hAi haOx lOrx...thE cAmpfirE nOt thAt succEssfUl...eniwAe...yEstErdAe dE pOst sOunds sO idiOtic lAhx hOrx...sOrriEx...i wAs in bAd mOod yEstErdAe nAhx,sOrry guidEs...yOuu all dUnn rEally sUx,hAhAx,evEry cCa hAd it's gOod aNdd bAd...lOlx...nth mOrE tO sAe...im sAd tOdAe agAin,rEasOn ish nOt thE sAmE as yStd onE(prEviOus pOst)...it's abOut sOmE sIrs in HQ...lOlx...
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
5:27 PM
hAix...im sAd...i dunO why im sAd bEcOx of thAt...why...dUnn tEll mE i...aiyAhx...dunO lAhx...im sO sAd aftEr hEaring thAt...hAix...sAd...
hAix...haO rEn nAn zuO ahx...i rEally sO sIck of hElping lOrx...yOuu nOe hOw i fEel? i fEel likE thE mOmEnt i wAs bOrn,im fAtEd tO wOrk fOr my frEnds...which iSh evErytImE hElp thEm print thIs print thAt...plEasE lAhx...i rEally hAd enOugh...nOt i dUnn wAn tO print...it's jUx thAt thIs printEr ish nOt im thE only onE usIng,i hAvE onE sIstEr aNdd onE brOthEr...thEy nId tO usE tOo...aNdd yOuu nOe onE ink cOst hOw mUch anOtx? it's vEh expEnsivE lOrx...it wAs likE dunO sInce whEn,i think ish sEc 1...sO mAny peOplE askEd mE 'yi jun,yOuu hAvE printEr ritEx?'...aNdd hOw mAny tImEs i hAd hEard thIs sEntEnce...cOuntlEss lAhx...mAkE mE rEally pIssEd off lOrx...i alsO nOt thAt rIch wAd...all askEd mE print onE all sO cOlOurfUl...think i wAd ahx? cOlOur prInting prOvidEr ahx? evEn yOuu gIvE mE mOnEy aNdd askEd mE print,i alsO wUnn print...hAix...aNdd hOw i rEjEct...aiyOz...sO evErytImE i hAd tO...hAix...hAvE tO print agAin...jUx dunO hOw tO rEjEct lOrx...
hAix...thEn tOdAe onE of my frEnd askEd mE 'yOuu hAvE cOlOur printEr ritEx'? i wAs sO...hAix...spOil my dAe lOrx...thEn i tOld mE my 4 printing inks lEft only onE bluE...whIch ish truE lAHx,i nEvEr bluff hIm...thEn yOuu nOe wAd anOtx? wAd thE hEll lOrx...hE gO aNdd chAnge tO all bluE...rEally all bluE lOrx...thE wOrds bluE,thE bAckgrOund bluE...whOlE pAgE all bluE,nOt a sInglE whitE or othEr cOlOurs...i wAs likE aftEr sEeing thE filE...wAd thE hEll! fuk lOrx...i dUnn rEally usE 'fuk' onE lOrx,but if thErE's rEally sOmEthing mAkE mE sO pIssEd off aNdd angry...i will sAe lAhx...it's vEh rArE whEn i sAe fuk dE...nOrmAlly ish only sUcks...but lAst tImE i dUn sAe dE...cOx gOt onE pErsOn dUnn likE,thEn i wAs likE kEnA trAinEd by thE pErsOn frOm oftEn sAe onE,until nOt evEn onE vulgAr wOrd cOx hE dUnn likE...but nOw nO onE cOntrOl mE liaOx lOrx...lOlx...hAix...okiEx...bAck tO thE tOpic...thEn hAix...all bluE...wAh laOx...whEn yOuu rEally sEe thE filE hOrx...yOuu will hAvE thE sAmE rEactiOn as mE onE lOrx...wAd thE...but i dunO hOw tO uplOad filE fOr yOuu all tO sEe...if yOuu wAn tO sEe...cOmE onlinE aNdd lOok fOr mE lOrx...lOlx...sO at thE eNdd still hAvE tO hElp hIm print...but i gOt edit hIs filE lOrx...firxly,thE onE hE sEnt mE is really tOoOooOo mUch bluE,aNdd i cAn't affOrd tO print thAt mUch...sEcOndly,thE cOlOur cOntrAst SUCKS tOtAlly...bAckgrOund dArk bluE,nO shAding,aNdd thE wOrd light bluE...likE shit lAhx...sO i edit tO gOt tOning onE lOrx...mUch nIcEr lOrx...MUCH MUCH nIcEr...!!! lOlx...
okiEx...nth tO writE lE...c yAz!~ lAtEr hAvE tO hElp out in skOol frOm 7pm tO 10 pm...siAnx...aNdd i jUx rEmEmbEr i will mIsS my 'chArmEd' lOrx...shIt thEm lAhx...guidEs sUcks lAhx...big dEal ahx? onE cAmpfirE nId all thE unifOrm grOups tO hElp...dunO hOw tO dO still dO...sucks...
Monday, December 06, 2004
6:46 PM
siAnx...gOt mysElf a vEh bluE-blAck dE bluE blAck agAin...lOlx...vEh mystEricAlly...
Saturday, December 04, 2004
10:57 PM
lOlx...tirEd siA...lOng tImE nO gO outt,tOdAe finAlly gO out lE!!! lOlx...wEnt outt wIth scOtt aNdd hIs cEll ( church frEnds ) aNdd hIs church frEnds' frEnds...lOlx...
tOdAe jiA mIn wEnt mAlAysiA lE...hAix...whEn wOkE up,rEalizE shE nOt in sIngApOrE lE,kIndA sAd lOrx...cOx nO onE tO bIckEr wIth mE lE...hAix...nOw will bE sO quiEt arOund mE...nO nOisE...hAix...mIsS jiA mIn lEhx...hOwx...lOlx...kKx...shE's cOming bAck prObAbly nExt mOndAe nItE...but nExt dAe flyIng tO chInA lE...sObx! hAix...fly agAin...aNdd hAd tO hEart brEak agAin...lOlx...hOpE shE fAstEr cOmE bAck bAhx...hEhEx...
okiEx...tOdAe...wEnt outt wIth scOtt,as i sAid jux nOw...hE pull mE outt lAhx,lOlx,i alsO cAn't rEjEct ritEx,but kIndA okiEx lAhx,cAn lEt mE nOe mOrE frEnds aNdd nOe wAd's hAppEning in thE outsidE wOrldd...lOlx...wEll,i fIrx tImE gO out wIth hIm,gAn jiOng lOrx,dunO wAd tO wEar...hAix...thEn hIs frEnds thErE all oldEr thAn mE onE...thEn i wEar as usuAl lOrx,nOt much spEciAl...thEn wEnt p.s tO mEet hIm,originAlly wAtching mOviE( thE incrEdiblEs) wIth hIm dE,cOx hE hAvEn wAtch,thEn all his frEnds wAtch lE,thEn i nEvEr wAtch,sO askEd mE outt fOr mOviE lOrx,but lAtEr hIs frEnd wAn wAtch shuttErs,thEn i cAn't tAkE hOrrOr mOviEs dE,sO i nEvEr jOin thEm,sO mEet hIm at a lAtEr tImE,12.45 pm at plAzA sIngApurA...lAtEr mEet lOrx,thEn wAh laOx,sEe hIs frEnds drEss until,hAix,sO mAturEd,zaO zhi daO i wEar gOt cOllAr onE,thEn lAtEr i dunO thEm mAhx,sO wAlk wAlk lOrx...sO pAi sEh...hAix...thEn kEpt likE siAm thEm lOrx,shy mAhx,thEn i dunO wAd tO dO,aNdd i spEak chinEsE onE mAhx,but thEy all spEak engliSh...hAix...rEally scArEd thAt tImE,sO alwAes stIck tO scOtt lOrx...nOt rEally stick lAhx,jUx stAnd bEsidE hIm...btw...i mEt twO fIrx,onE ish clArissA,anOthEr onE ish hEr frEnd,tAufiq...lOlx...tAufiq...but nOt thE sIngApOrE idOl onE lAhx...thEn still eArly mAhx,thEy hAvE thE sEoul gArdEn cOoking cOmpEtitiOn hEld at 3.30 pm...thEn thAt tImE only 1 plUs...thEn wE likE,still hAvE lOts of tImE tO wAlk...thEn wAlk lOrx,lAtEr mEet frEnds,gOt naOmi(intErEsting nAmE yA?),dEbbiE(sistErs wIth naOmi,bOth sIstErs' stEad arE sO tAll lOrx)...dAniEl,aNdd lOtx of frEnds lAhx...altOgEthEr...abt 10+ lOrx...sO thEy intrOducE hErE aNdd thErE,thEn i sO pAisEh,cOx lAst tImE i wEnt outt dE 'gAng' iSh nOt sO kE qi wIth eAch othEr aNdd intrOducE blAh blAh blAh dE...sO i wAs likE...ermx...dunO hOw tO rE-act lOrx...eniwAe,i thAt tImE sAw jiA lIng...hAhAx...thEn lAtEr tOgEthEr wAlkEd tO sEoul gArdEn...thEn i fIrx tImE gO mAhx,thEn scOtt wAs likE sAeing,evEn yOuu nEvEr eAt,but gO in still nId mOnEy...thEn i wAs likE sO shOckEd,cOx i dUnn gO onE mAhx,thEn dunO nId tO pAy,thEn i tOt it's okiEx...mAybE nOt thAt expEnsivE...thEn lAtEr thEy sAid...$21+...thEN i wAs likE...oMg...aNdd my wAllEt only hAvE $10,cOx bEfOrE thAt $10 wAs spEnt on my ez-lInk cArd...thEn lAtEr scOtt sAe hE pAid fOr mE...lOlx...a bIt kInd of gAn-dOng lAhx...but i of cOx still nId tO pAy bAck lAhx,hIs hArd-eArnEd mOnEy lEhx...thEn aftEr nOeing thE pricE,i wAs likE dUnn dArE tO sAe tO scOtt,thEn lAtEr finAlly sAe lE lOrx...sO lAtEr wE wEnt in lAhx...thEn wE wEnt tO tAkE thE fOod tOgEthEr...cOx thE cOmpEtitiOn hAd tO prEpArE appEtizEr,mAin diSh,sOup aNdd dEssErt...thEn mE,scOtt,clArissA,tAufiq aNdd onE guy(i fOrgOt hIs nAmE lE,sOrriEx!) in onE grOup...tAufiq ish AJC,clArissA 16,thEn thE guy ish 21...sErvIng nS...
thEn thE cOmpEtitiOn stArtEd lOrx,thEn bEfOrE thAt,sAmAnthA jOinEd us,gOt cOntAct frOm mE lOrx...thEn stArt lAhx...i wAs likE sO pAisEh...okiEx lAhx,nvm,at lEast scOtt,whOm i nOe,sittIng bEsIdE mE...hEhEx...sO hAi haO lOrx...but lAtEr gEtting alOng wEll wIth hIs cEll lE lAhx...othEr grOup a fEw only,likE thE jOsEphinE lOrx,tOking wIth hEr fElt rElAc lAhx...lOlx...dunO why alsO...shE sittIng bEsIdE mE niA,shE's thE orgAnizEr of thE cOmpEtitiOn,aNdd thE judgEs tOo,jUdgE alsO gOt pEi yUn...thEn i wAs likE sO fUll,dUn fEel likE eAtIng lOrx,cOx i hAd my lUnch bEfOrE cOming outt lE...but if i dUnn eAt,wAd fOr i pAy thE $20+,will hEart-pAin onE lEhx,pAy sO mUch fOr nOthing...so dEcIdEd tO eAt lOrx...thEn wE mAdE thE thIng...thEn sOmEtImEs scOtt tOok thE fOod fOr mE lAhx,but hE alsO gOt tOok fOr hIs frEnds tOo...lOlx...sO dUnn anyhOw thInk...thEn lAtEr thE rEsults outt lAhx,gOt 3 grOups,thE mArks arE accOrdIng tO,crEativity,tAstE,grOupwOrk,prEsEntAtiOn...aNdd...i fOrgOt still gOt wAd lE...thEn whEnn it sAe thE mArks accOrdIngly,at fIrx ours arE all thE lOwest,thEn tOt gOing tO lOsE,but eNdd up wE wOn!~ hAhAx...it's bEcOx of ourr grOupwOrk dE mArks...hEhEx...sO shOckEd thAt tImE...thEn gOt thE li(3) lAn(2)...thE prIzE nOrghx...hAhAx...thEn aftEr thAt oMg,eAt aNdd eAt aNdd eAt,dUnn dArE tO sAe aNythIng althOugh im am sO dAmn fUll lOrx,lOlx...thEn thE chIckEn cOok aNdd cOok aNdd cOok,aNdd scOtt kEpt on tOok fOr mE,thEn wAs gOing tO bUrst lOrx,aNdd i eAt until scArEd liaOx,eAt until ni(4) lOrx,sO lAtEr dUnn wAn eAt lE...thEn thEy clEar up lAhx...thEn lAtEr scOtt askEd mE wAn tAkE aNyy fruits nor icE-crEam anOtx...thEn i sAe nOpE...cOx im am sOoOo fUll lE...thEn hE kEpt on askIng...rEally dUn wAnn ahx? thEn lOlx...i kEpt on shAking my hEad,sAeing dUnn wAn...thEn lAtEr hE aNdd hIs frEnds gO tAkE lOrx,lEft mE thErE alOnE...aNdd i aftEr a whilE...i wAs dunO tOking tO jOsEphinE or lOoking wAd ahx...ish on thE lEft dE,thEn scOtt's sEat ish on my lEft sIdE...aNdd suddEnly hEard my tAblE...gOt sOund,as in,thE bOwl put on thE tAblE dE sOund,quitE lOud lAhx...thEn i dunO wAd lOrx,sO tUrn arOund...lOlx...a bOwl wIth twO smAll scOops of chOcOlAtE icE-crEam,i wAs likE...sO shOckEd lOrx...but sOo swEet tOo...hAhAx...lOlx...thEn i lOokEd at scOtt smilIng...thAt kInd,wAn tO lAugh,hAppy cUm angry thAt kInd lOrx...thEn hAhAx...i wAs likE,lOokIng at thE icE-crEam...lOlx...okiEx lAhx...kIndA swEet of hIm lOrx...sO nvm lAhx...eAt lOrx...but i rEally sO fUll lE lOrx...hAhAx...but lOoking at thE twO cutE smAll scOops of chOcOlAtE icE-crEam,hAhAx...rEally cutE lOrx,smAll smAll dE,aNdd my fAvOuritE icE-crEam flAvOur ish chOcOlAtE lOrx...fEeling sOo...ermx...cOx lOng tImE nO onE trEat mE sO swEet mAhx...sO a bit gAn dOng,swEet nOrghx...lOlx...thEn lAtEr wE wEnt outt lE...but guEss wAd...wE wErE likE stAyEd thErE fOr 3 hOurs plUs...frOm 3.30 tO 6 plUs lOrx...mEans whEn wE wEnt off,alrEady 6 plUs lE...hAhAx...ridiculOus siA...
thEn lAtEr gO wAlk wAlk wIth thEm...thEn gOt onE thIng i nOticE in thEm lOrx,whEn thEy wAn gO ritEx...thEy dUnn tEll thEir thE only originAlly thE frEnd thErE thAt thEy gOing liaOx,thEy jUx tEll thE any frEnd thAt thEy jUx nOe tOdAe thAt thEy gOing lE,jiu gO off lE lEhx...withOut infOrming anyonE...lOlx...diffErEncE frOm my wOrldd siA...lOlx...thEn lAtEr wAlk wAlk wAlk,kIndA lAtE lE lOrx...7 plUs lE...thEn scOtt wAlkEd mE tO mrt stAtiOn...fUn siA...why...wE gOt lOst! mi(2) lu(4) lE...lOlx...thEn lAtEr chAtting hAppily whilE fInding thE cOrrEct wAe...lOlx...hAhAx...fInd lE lAhx...thEn hE wEnt bAck nOrghx...thEn i quitE tirEd lE lAhx...wAlk hOmE lOrx...frOm amk mrt stAtiOn...fEeling kIndA tirEd ahx,sO lOng nEvEr gO outt lE...lOlx...
kIndA enjOy it tOdAe lAhx..thOugh gOt lOst wAe...lOlx...but fUn still...enjOyablE,althOugh it wAs a vEh pAisEh dAe fOr mE...lOlx...chOcOlAtE icE-crEam rAwks yA? hAhAx...thAnx scOtt... =)
Wednesday, December 01, 2004
5:12 PM
lOlz...sOmEonE cOmE my hOusE rEpAir aIr-cOn...2 gUyx...thEy jUx wEnt liaOx,cOx rEpAirEd fInishEd liaOx mAhx...lOlx...onE unclE aNdd onE yOung guy...at fIrx sAw hIm...lOlx...wAs thInking...'wAhx...hOw old dE...alsO cOmE rEpAir air-cOn...likE quitE yOung lEhx...'...thEn i jiu bAck tO my cOmputEr lOrx...thEn rEpAir lOrx...actuAlly thE guy quitE cUtE nAhx...lOlx...thEn wAs thInking hE hOw old lOrx...but wAit! i nO intEntiOn dE...jUx curiOus hE hOw old...thEn lAtEr thEy cOmE in thE rOom,cOx thE air-cOn alsO in thIs rOom mAhx...thEn my mum sAe...''yi jUn ahx...(thEn i turN arOund wIth a 'ahx?' )...thIs bOy nExt yEar alsO sEc 3 lEhx...''....lOlz!~ im shO pAi sEh...hAhAx...thEn i lOokEd at hIm(nOrmAl rEactiOn lAhx),lOlx...kIndA cutE lAhx,cOx hE likE shO shy shy lOrx...hAhAx...thEn i lOokEd lE,dunO wAd tO sAe,hAhAx,jiu turN bAck lE...hAhAx...thEn i stAy at thE cOmputEr sEat lOrx...hAhAx...thEn aftEr thAt,thEy cOmE in agAin...cOx thE guy ish thE lEarnEr mAhx,dunO ish thE mAn's sOn or wAd...thEn i turn arOund(my mum not arOUnd)...sEe whO is it...thEn it's thEm lOrx...thEn i lOokEd at thE mAn,hE mAkIng thE rEpAiring thIng lOrx,thEn turn tO thE guy,hE smilEd at mE,lOlx...kIndA swEet lAhx,or rAthEr a cutE smilE...lOlx...thEn i smilEd bAck lOrx...jiu turn bAck lE...lOlx...nOw thEy nOt hErE liaOx...rEpAir finIsh lE mAhx...but hEard thAt thE rEpAir mAn cOming agAin...tO mAkE a cOmplEtE wAshing aNdd othErs,ish my pArEnts wAn dE,not cOnfirm yEt,cOx mum nEed tO cOnfIrm wIth dAd...lOlx...kKx...nOthing elsE tO crAp...hAhAx...
bOrEdOm? wAd's thAt? lOlx...im sO siAnx...nO onE jiO mE outt...thOsE wAn jiO mE outt onE,i dUn wIsh tO gO outt wIth thEm...aNdd wAd's exActly i wAn...lOlx...siAnx ahx...evErydAe stAy at hOmE...i gOt mOnths nEvEr wAtch mOviE,wAlk wAlk lE...sIncE thE stArt of hOlidAe...i hAvEn wEnt out fOr mOviE or plAy plAy...evErydAe stAy at hOmE 'jiA zhuA' (eAt snAkE akA zO-bO)...hAix...lifE ish sUch a bOrE withOut yOu,nO surprisEs,nO lAughtErs,nO excitEmEnts,nO...nOthing,jUx nOthing mOrE...thIs is thE lifE im livIng nOw...pAthEtIc hUrhx...i fElt sO siAnx in thIs kIndA wOrldd...i likE...hOw tO sAe...likE...nO frEnds...buddy nOt likE bUddy...fElt thE dIstAncE sO fAr...likE nO bEst frEnds...shuO chuAn lE...onlyy bEst frEnds in skOol...nOt in lifE...sO pAthEtIc ritEx...nId tO shEd a fEw tEars? hMmx...nAhx...i dUnid...but insidE mE...rEally sAd...fOr mAny dAes lE...fElt sO nEglEctEd in thIs wOrldd...hAix...eNvy a lOt of peOplE...hAix...btw...twO dAes agO whilE bAthing thEn rEalizE actuAlly gOt 17 bluE blAck dE bruisEs instEad of 11...kE liAn bAhx...jUx a wAll jiu cAn mAkE mE until likE thAt lE...lOlx...hAix...rEally nOthing tO sAe lE...sOooOo tirEd of evErythIng...jUx by viEwing my nAmElist,thOugh gOt a lOtx...but nOnE i cAn jiO thEm out...hAix...dO i rEally nEed yOuu tO brightEn my lifE...tO hAvE thE sAmE hAppy hOlidAe as i hAd lAstt yEar? but it's almOst 100% mIssiOn impOssiblE...but thOsE whO arE rEading my blOg nOw...dUn mistAkEn...im still sInglE...aNdd i dUn likE anyonE at thE mOmEnt...im jUx a pErsOn whO likEs tO huAi(2) niAn(4) my pAst...i mIsS thE dAes i hAd spEnt lAstt nOvEmbEr aNdd dEcEmbEr hOlidAes...
pAthEtic
th e g ir l*
16
jsps - amkss
ncc air
13 february 1990
w i sh i n g f or*
bring my parents to overseas with my siblings; a hardworking me; GREAT grades in olvls this year
